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Yes, I'm on vacation, but that doesn't stop my mind from going in every direction like it usually does. If anything, it makes it worse. Sitting in a plane or car with nothing else but my thoughts and pen/paper (or my most recent purchase, my iPad) means they have my attention whether I want them or not. It's made me . . . introspective, I think.
I've thought about friends and family. Wondering how friends are doing. Regretting not staying in touch as much as I should.
I've thought about fanfic and writing - haven't posted much, even if writing is something of a daily occurrence for me. Found some new fandoms to explore, which has brought new stuff to read. And, as if I'm not busy enough or a big enough glutton for self-punishment, considering and prepping for fest-writing that comes up around this time of year.
And, for the briefest moments, I thought about work - it was very brief, as in the flitting thought of updating and getting my resume out there because the current work I have will end by 12/4, if not slightly sooner (but it is guaranteed to end and no sign of it changing from extra-help/temporary to something more permanent). (and a sneaking suspicion there will be some clause or quirky thing, like that I don't have a CA drivers license, which will keep me from collecting CA unemployment.) at least I'll still have tutoring - something is better than nothing, but even that reminds me I need to get my CA teaching credential.
I've tried NOT to think about things like my bank account or make financial comparisons between the trip and necessities. I've tried not to dwell on the never-ending 'what-if's' in my head, nor on the significance that Friday is. I've tried - that is success to me. Haven't completely shut out those negative voices, but, for the moment, they're quieter than usual.
Tropical Storm Isaac is right outside the window of the hotel room. Sitting here, watching it, reminds me of watching the rain and thunderstorms back in MN. It's calming and if I could sit outside and not get soaked from the wind, I would. It's still warm out there, with humidity I haven't felt since living in CA. Feels good. Comfortable.
I like the rain.
I've thought about friends and family. Wondering how friends are doing. Regretting not staying in touch as much as I should.
I've thought about fanfic and writing - haven't posted much, even if writing is something of a daily occurrence for me. Found some new fandoms to explore, which has brought new stuff to read. And, as if I'm not busy enough or a big enough glutton for self-punishment, considering and prepping for fest-writing that comes up around this time of year.
And, for the briefest moments, I thought about work - it was very brief, as in the flitting thought of updating and getting my resume out there because the current work I have will end by 12/4, if not slightly sooner (but it is guaranteed to end and no sign of it changing from extra-help/temporary to something more permanent). (and a sneaking suspicion there will be some clause or quirky thing, like that I don't have a CA drivers license, which will keep me from collecting CA unemployment.) at least I'll still have tutoring - something is better than nothing, but even that reminds me I need to get my CA teaching credential.
I've tried NOT to think about things like my bank account or make financial comparisons between the trip and necessities. I've tried not to dwell on the never-ending 'what-if's' in my head, nor on the significance that Friday is. I've tried - that is success to me. Haven't completely shut out those negative voices, but, for the moment, they're quieter than usual.
Tropical Storm Isaac is right outside the window of the hotel room. Sitting here, watching it, reminds me of watching the rain and thunderstorms back in MN. It's calming and if I could sit outside and not get soaked from the wind, I would. It's still warm out there, with humidity I haven't felt since living in CA. Feels good. Comfortable.
I like the rain.