The surgery went well...
I had my surgery yesterday and it went pretty well. I'm in a lot of pain, but they are giving me some pretty good pain meds. It hurts a lot more than I thought it would. I can barely get out of my bed, it hurts too bad to move. Last night I could barely move, but I had to get up to pee, so that took me like 15 min to get up out of bed go and then crawl back in bed. I haven't been in this much pain in a long time. But, in the end it's gonna be worth it, 'cause I really needed this surgery. I had 4 incisions above my belly button that they went through them with tubes and cameras etc during the surgery and then they also went through my belly button. Right now my belly is all bruised and taped together etc and wayyy swollen. The cuts where the incisions were hurt, but mostly it hurts on the inside. My shoulders are also really sore because of the meds. I feel like I'm in my 90's cause it hurts so bad to move. I feel way pathetic, but my nurses have been telling me that I look really good for having surgery yesterday. So, there is hope for me yet. In about 3 weeks I am going on that 20 mile walk for suicide prevention and awareness... I hope I feel better by then. I should... I hope I can do the whole thing, but if not, oh well. If I'm in half of as much pain as I am now, I'm fuckin' screwed. But, I should be okay and I'm gonna hang in there as best as I can. If all continues to go well I may be able to come home tomorrow. I sure hope so... I can't wait to be able to sleep in my own bed. That'll feel good. I can't eat anything for a while. Today and yesterday just clear liquids, but I can have a malt this afternoon if my stomach can handle it. Then all I can have is certain liquids and super soft food like applesauce, jello etc. So for the next month I'll be living off jello and my awesome smoothies (the only thing I can make.) This is the greatest diet ever... 1.) because I don't have a choice, 2.) 'cause my stomach is now smaller from the surgery, 3.) 'cause I'm not hungry and 4.) because without even trying I've lost over 15 lbs. Yay for that. Well, I think I'm gonna read and take a nap pretty soon here. I'm not feelin' too hot right now. I'll probably get another morphine shot here soon, so that will make me feel a lil better and make me even more tired. So, that'll be good. I'll hopefully be able to get some good rest. Well, I'm gonna do that. I'll hopefully be home tomorrow night. If you wanna get a hold of me my room number is 612 874 4850. Talk to ya later -Mara