Confusion takes over...
These last few days have been really shitty. I wish things would just smooth over for a little while. I haven't taken my meds for a while. Bad idea. I just need to take them consistently for about another month and then I should start feeling better. Why do I always do that? It's not like I do it on purpose, it just happens. I hate feeling this depressed. Granted I've felt way way more depressed than I am now, but I don't think I should have to live with this. Do I really have to feel this shitty all the time? I haven't been truly happy in a long time.
5 things I can do to make myself feel better...
- Take my meds
- Clean my room
- Excersize
- Write
- Catch up on my homework
Is there ever a time in your life when you aren't confused about something? It doesn't seem like it to me. I wish I could just make up my damn mind and know what I want for once. It's hard being lonely. Sometimes I just feel like I need to be in somebody's arms or something. I don't know why I get so lonely. I have great friends and a great family and I see them every day. It just feels like there are still so many things that are missing in my life. Granted, I am still young, but it doesn't hurt any less.
Man, my back hurts like a fuckin' bitch. I need to go get another deep tissue massage. They push so hard on my back it hurts, but it feels so good at the same time. Yay for massages!
Well, class is just about over. I'm out...