I definetly got a case of the Mondays...

[marapants]

Part of me doesn't even want to date anybody and then at the same exact time I long for it. I sometimes wonder if it's even worth it. I don't want my emotions to be toyed with. I've already dealt with that enough. For a while I thought I was content with everything but lately my mind wonders. I don't know why I can't get him out of my head. He is such a sweetie, that's why. I'm sure he has no clue. I don't know if I'll even try to make something out of this. I doubt it. It's easier to just blow it off. I don't wanna make things worse than they already are. Oh well. I will just have to ponder this for a while, I suppose. I don't even really know what to think. Hmm... Hopefully things will just fall into place. I kinda feel like if I get involved with someone it's just gonna complicate things more, but at the same time it might just make things better. He doesn't seem like someone that would just be a jerk. I need to do a better job of watching out for those boys. I'm just sick of people fucking with my mind. I just need someone who is genuine and caring. Eventually I will find someone like that. Until then I'll just have to wait around for a while.

10 minutes left of class. I hope today goes by fast. That would be good. Well, I am gonna get back to work. I'm out... :)

~Mara