Life
Such a vague subject, but alot is going on so let's break things down:
Work:
Well w/ work shit really sucks atm. All was good, things were well at my store, Twinsburg, and shit blew up in Maple Hts, so they sent me there to help out Gabe, the newly appt'd GM there because the previous GM really made it a shithole. They didn't ask at all, they just put me there, fine I don't mind helping out temporarily. 3 Days a week and shorter hours to compensate drive time since it's further away. Fine. Eventually, I get stuck working there 5 days a week. Fine, I'm more than happy to help Gabe out because he's a good guy and deserves better than what he got w/ that store. Two months go by. I'm still there. They keep telling us now that they're closing the store so I figure I'm now stuck here until they close it, though they never officially say that.
Back at my homestore, Twinsburg, all is going ok, but my GM, Diana, decides to get another job. That's great, that opens up her GM position and I'm her direct subordinate, and as far as I know, I'm pretty much next in line for the next GM position. Wrong. Basically what they've decided to do, and this is all heresay (though very credible), is move Gabe over to Twinsburg and keep me at Maple Hts until it closes. (Side note: They have to wait until they get a buyer or something to get out of their lease on the building). This is where this becomes bullshit. Twinsburg is MY store. My GM didn't do shit there, and I busted my ass for the last 18 months fixing that store and making it a very desirable location to manage. Now they're going to just hand it off to someone who hasn't had to put any work into it and they're going to throw me in the shitstorm again to solve their problem store again. Gabe chose to come to Maple Hts. I didn't. Leave his ass there. Twinsburg is my baby and it's not fair that they're going to take it from me.
Love:
Amanda and I are still talking. So the deal is her fiance pretty much lives at her apt, which isn't weird because... they're engaged. But what's weird is how she talks about it. She seems to dispise the fact he's always there. She said she moved out because she wanted a chance to be on her own and take care of herself but since she moved out he's just wormed his way in. Also, I guess the only reason I got to hang out at her apt one night was because Joe, the fiance, was out of town. So unless he goes out of town again, we're going to be restricted to our little luncheon dates we've been going on. It's funny that I find myself ok w/ all this. I should want more dedication from someone that is interested in me than being a part time friend. We've had a discussion once now about how we're both mutually attracted to each other and that we're crossing the line emotionally, and that we've crossed the line physically. We decided we'd stop and that unless anything changed we'd just be friends. But really, we can't be friends, I knew this already because there's always going to be this guilt that is present and so we'll never be able to hang out w/ Joe, which means the relationship will always be clouded in doubt on his part. So what do I do? I know that she's having second thoughts about all this, she sends me txts asking me all kinds of weird questions that barely pass as appropriate some even going as far as to ask if I was just looking for sex or a real relationship. Advice to her: Move on from Joe, do the honorable and decent thing and move on. You don't love him or are just to naive to be married, yet. Either way you're making a mistake, unfortunately I can't really tell her that because it's going to seem like i'm only saying that because I have an ulterior motive. Even as a friend I think she needs to move on, even if it's not w/ me. Maybe I should to. Do I really want to spend time persuing someone like this? Probably not, but really, I'm not in love with her, yet, and am mostly looking for fun than love w/ her. Love would be good, but I'm not expecting alot out of this.
Money:
Money is good. I'm pretty financially stable at the moment. Going to have to move here soon, so not sure what that's going to do to my financially, I'm sure it won't be good though.
Family:
My parents are probably getting divorced after 38 years of marriage. My dad is a complete asshole and a retard. He's allowed himself to "love" another woman who is apparently like 25 years younger than him. He's 60, almost. Wtf does a 35 year old woman want w/ a 60 year old man? He's not rich by any means. But I guess now we know where his supply if Cialis has been going since him and my mom haven't had sex in 7 years. Thx for sharing that one Mom >_>.
To be frank, I'm ok w/ this though. I've seen it coming for years and am almost happy to see them separate. No I am not happy, just happy that they'll no longer be in abusive situations w/ each other. Both of them have alcohol problems and finally the booze has taken it's toll on their relationship. Sad.
FFXI:
Got my Skadi Jambeaux a while back. Work sucks ass now so I never get to play and when I do it's always too late to do anything or too early and no one is on. I should just quit.
Health:
Health is good, been working out again and meeting w/ my trainer finally! Joined a softball team and a volleyball team and been hitting the driving range at one of the golf courses near my house. That's all going to come crashing down soon because of work.
Work is fucking my life, I'm not working to live, I'm living to work. How sad I've become a cliche, but that's what it is now. It's sad that I can't do anything I love in life because of my job. It shouldn't be this way.
Oh happy pre-b-day to me on sunday, probably won't post again until June at this rate. Ttyl.