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I had the worst day ever. First of all i was soooo tired this morning because i couldn't sleep because i was worrying about this horse at my barn named missi who got kicked and her leg was really bad and they said that if it didn't stop bleeding then they may have to put her down.
then i get to the barn and this campers mother comes in and starts freakin at me. yesterday her child was in an argument with another kid and i ended up having to end the argument and told her to stop what she was doing. this kid didn't like being told no and decided not to talk to me and when her mother picked her up she cried and told her mom that i had yelled at her. the mother talked to sherri about it and then sherri talked to me. i told her what happened and she told me that she understood and that the kid was just too sensitive. this morning when the girls mother came to drop her off she pulled me aside. but not really aside because everyone was listening in such a small space, everyone including all the campers and the counslors were listening. the mother went on to tell me that i had no right to disapline her child and that if i had a problem with her then i have to go to sherri and not tell her what to do. she told me that i was just a teenager and that i was not responsible enough to take care of her child. she also said that if i continued to disapline her child that she would be pulled out of camp and that she would cause problems for our stable. i tried to explain that her child was not at all disaplined only told not to do something for the sake of another camper but that didn't work and just led to another argument infront of everyone. the mother told me that there had been previous issues with her child and another camper and that her child had not been able to tell anyone about it because she didn't want to be a tattle tail. i told her that if her daughter had a problem then she should come straight to me and i would deal with it but she went on to tell me that she did not want her child coming to me but going to sherri if she had a problem because she didn't trust me with her child. then sabina came in and saw us she asked what was going on and the mother just left. i was so embarassed. sabina took me outside and asked me what was going on. i was so embarassed i cried, sabina gave me a hug and told me not to worry about it and that it wasn't my fault. i don't actually like sabina all that much but i'm glad that she came in because i don't know how much longer i could have let that stupid lady go on. i feel differently about sabina since yesterday when her horse was the one who kicked missi. her horse also hurt herself when she kicked missi and her hind leg was swollen so sabina asked me to go out side to her paddock every once in a while and see if she was alright. at lunch when i went out she was freakin out so i brought her inside. then she and missi fought over their stall cause the wall isn't high enough to completly separate them. so jordan and i ate our lunches out there to make sure that they didn't fight. we didn't want to be with the kids anyways, they were very energetic.
also there was blood all over the isle because of last night when missi hurt her leg. i was having my lesson with alex and sabina came running in yelling that she needed lori right away. lori told us to walk and ran out, leaving the door open. she didn't come back for 20 minutes and when she did come back she told us what happened. evet had kicked missi and split her leg open. the vet came and couldn't sew it because of where it was. when they found her out in the paddock there was block pooring from her leg and puddles of blood everywhere. they brought her into the isle and blood continued to poor everywhere. they finally got a bandage around it but it was still bleeding. when missi's owner came they put shavings over the blood to make it look better so that she didn't freak. the shavings covered up the blood but now it doesn't come off the cement. all the campers kept asking about the blood that you could see and we had to make up stories.
then sherri tells me that jordan is going to be teaching the lessons. wonderful and so unfair. i have worked at that camp for a year and at the barn for even longer. i have been riding for over 3 years and jordan hasn't been at the barn for over a month. she has been riding for a while and can jump higher than me. she is 15 and is a CIT. i am a counslor since i have done the camp before. i have spent the whole week sidewalking. walking and running in circles, i have never been more bored. sherri was going to teach the lessons but instead offered it to jordan. now all the campers think that jordan is a counslor and that they don't have to listen to me because i am a CIT. however it is the otherway around. sherri told me that hopefully i could teach soon, if i was interested. i told her that i was very interested but i was worried that she would consider my age a problem. she told me that i was too young to teach and that she had a manual that i could read instead. i can't believe that she let jordan teach. she hasn't been ridng at our barn for more than a month and this is her first time ever doing camp. i have been doing this for over a year and have been riding for over 3 years, almost 4 but she tells me that i am too young.
why does my age interfere with everything??? i am not too young to watch the kids in camp and i am not too young to teach 5 year olds how to ride. it's not like their doing anything except walking around in circles!!! i am so frustrated that everyone thinks that because i am 13 i am incapable of doing anything. i am more capable of teaching and taking care of those damn kids than sherri is. she may be experienced in riding and taking care of horses but she doesn't know how to deal with kids and she has no idea what she is doing. me being closer to the kids age doesn't make me less capable it makes me more capable. and i don't want to sound preppy but those kids love me! they think that i am the greatest thing since barney but they hate sherri, they think that she is soooo stupid and that she doesn't know anything! i am so sick of being embarassed and i am so sick of being treated like a 10 year old. i don't know how to deal with being treated this way. my mom can't even give me sympathy when i tell her what is wrong. she tells me that sherri is right and that my age does matter. i can't stand being treated like this. and i can't stand acting like everything is fine when it's not.
i need to find a way to deal with all this when i am so tired of this. i don't want to make this worse but this is going way too far.
then i get to the barn and this campers mother comes in and starts freakin at me. yesterday her child was in an argument with another kid and i ended up having to end the argument and told her to stop what she was doing. this kid didn't like being told no and decided not to talk to me and when her mother picked her up she cried and told her mom that i had yelled at her. the mother talked to sherri about it and then sherri talked to me. i told her what happened and she told me that she understood and that the kid was just too sensitive. this morning when the girls mother came to drop her off she pulled me aside. but not really aside because everyone was listening in such a small space, everyone including all the campers and the counslors were listening. the mother went on to tell me that i had no right to disapline her child and that if i had a problem with her then i have to go to sherri and not tell her what to do. she told me that i was just a teenager and that i was not responsible enough to take care of her child. she also said that if i continued to disapline her child that she would be pulled out of camp and that she would cause problems for our stable. i tried to explain that her child was not at all disaplined only told not to do something for the sake of another camper but that didn't work and just led to another argument infront of everyone. the mother told me that there had been previous issues with her child and another camper and that her child had not been able to tell anyone about it because she didn't want to be a tattle tail. i told her that if her daughter had a problem then she should come straight to me and i would deal with it but she went on to tell me that she did not want her child coming to me but going to sherri if she had a problem because she didn't trust me with her child. then sabina came in and saw us she asked what was going on and the mother just left. i was so embarassed. sabina took me outside and asked me what was going on. i was so embarassed i cried, sabina gave me a hug and told me not to worry about it and that it wasn't my fault. i don't actually like sabina all that much but i'm glad that she came in because i don't know how much longer i could have let that stupid lady go on. i feel differently about sabina since yesterday when her horse was the one who kicked missi. her horse also hurt herself when she kicked missi and her hind leg was swollen so sabina asked me to go out side to her paddock every once in a while and see if she was alright. at lunch when i went out she was freakin out so i brought her inside. then she and missi fought over their stall cause the wall isn't high enough to completly separate them. so jordan and i ate our lunches out there to make sure that they didn't fight. we didn't want to be with the kids anyways, they were very energetic.
also there was blood all over the isle because of last night when missi hurt her leg. i was having my lesson with alex and sabina came running in yelling that she needed lori right away. lori told us to walk and ran out, leaving the door open. she didn't come back for 20 minutes and when she did come back she told us what happened. evet had kicked missi and split her leg open. the vet came and couldn't sew it because of where it was. when they found her out in the paddock there was block pooring from her leg and puddles of blood everywhere. they brought her into the isle and blood continued to poor everywhere. they finally got a bandage around it but it was still bleeding. when missi's owner came they put shavings over the blood to make it look better so that she didn't freak. the shavings covered up the blood but now it doesn't come off the cement. all the campers kept asking about the blood that you could see and we had to make up stories.
then sherri tells me that jordan is going to be teaching the lessons. wonderful and so unfair. i have worked at that camp for a year and at the barn for even longer. i have been riding for over 3 years and jordan hasn't been at the barn for over a month. she has been riding for a while and can jump higher than me. she is 15 and is a CIT. i am a counslor since i have done the camp before. i have spent the whole week sidewalking. walking and running in circles, i have never been more bored. sherri was going to teach the lessons but instead offered it to jordan. now all the campers think that jordan is a counslor and that they don't have to listen to me because i am a CIT. however it is the otherway around. sherri told me that hopefully i could teach soon, if i was interested. i told her that i was very interested but i was worried that she would consider my age a problem. she told me that i was too young to teach and that she had a manual that i could read instead. i can't believe that she let jordan teach. she hasn't been ridng at our barn for more than a month and this is her first time ever doing camp. i have been doing this for over a year and have been riding for over 3 years, almost 4 but she tells me that i am too young.
why does my age interfere with everything??? i am not too young to watch the kids in camp and i am not too young to teach 5 year olds how to ride. it's not like their doing anything except walking around in circles!!! i am so frustrated that everyone thinks that because i am 13 i am incapable of doing anything. i am more capable of teaching and taking care of those damn kids than sherri is. she may be experienced in riding and taking care of horses but she doesn't know how to deal with kids and she has no idea what she is doing. me being closer to the kids age doesn't make me less capable it makes me more capable. and i don't want to sound preppy but those kids love me! they think that i am the greatest thing since barney but they hate sherri, they think that she is soooo stupid and that she doesn't know anything! i am so sick of being embarassed and i am so sick of being treated like a 10 year old. i don't know how to deal with being treated this way. my mom can't even give me sympathy when i tell her what is wrong. she tells me that sherri is right and that my age does matter. i can't stand being treated like this. and i can't stand acting like everything is fine when it's not.
i need to find a way to deal with all this when i am so tired of this. i don't want to make this worse but this is going way too far.