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wow. i can't help but say it over and over again. friday was so exciting and so amazing. i wish that my whole life could be like that. that my life could be as amazing as it felt to be in the crowd of screaming people, listening to a singer like that. and as much as many people don't like him and say that he looks like a girl and that he's gay. i don't care about all that. for once in my life i actually like something that is my own to like and not something that my friends all like. something that i can have to myself, the pride in knowing that i met him and that i've heard him sing in real life. twice. and some people say that i'm obsessive and that i shouldn't care so much. why shouldn't i? most people my age are obsessing over people that they know and getting their hearts broken when they find out that the person doesn't feel the same about them. haven't i taken the smart route in liking someone that i know will never like me? i'm talking about someone that i know will never break my heart because their not in my life, they don't know me. i'm just a fan, not someone that he's ever going to remember. i can get excited and i can watch him on tv and i can watch my tapes of canadian idol and i can dream all i want and my heart will never get broken because he's never going to be there to break it. he's just a famous person. and watching him sing is amazing. it's so exciting to watch and to listen to the strength in his voice.
i'm proud to like kalan porter. he's a great singer and no matter what people say it's not going to change what i feel. and for that i'm glad that my friends aren't fans and that people i know make fun of him. to me it shows strength. it shows that i can stand up to people and not be a follower. i don't want to copy everyone else, i want to be myself and if people don't like that then that's too bad. it's been a while since i've thought like this, i've always wanted to be normal. and now i'm proud that i don't care what people think, i don't care what people say about me. i just want to finish this year and then i can make new friends and then i can start over. in a new house, in a new school with new friends and new people to meet. i just want to start over and leave all this behind me.
i'm proud to like kalan porter. he's a great singer and no matter what people say it's not going to change what i feel. and for that i'm glad that my friends aren't fans and that people i know make fun of him. to me it shows strength. it shows that i can stand up to people and not be a follower. i don't want to copy everyone else, i want to be myself and if people don't like that then that's too bad. it's been a while since i've thought like this, i've always wanted to be normal. and now i'm proud that i don't care what people think, i don't care what people say about me. i just want to finish this year and then i can make new friends and then i can start over. in a new house, in a new school with new friends and new people to meet. i just want to start over and leave all this behind me.