(no subject)

[manicxdepressed]

i found out that all andrea told me was lies. bullshit. im trying to get over her but its fucking hard as shiat. i still love her but i shouldnt. im trying to get over her and all its doing is making me more depressed. IF I WAS GOING TO FUCK ANYBODY ELSE IT WOULDNT FEEL RIGHT. i would be thinking about andrea the whole time and i have to much respect for someone to do that to them. maybe its better shes gone maybe its not. i miss her and all this shit is causing depression and i dunno why i feel this way towards her. i know she fucked dustin and told me she didnt. and i know that she fucked canada and zach and some other guy. life would have been better if she would have stayed in kuwait. i talked to dustin and that made shit way better. maybe i need to find someone else. thats probably right, but i cant get her out of my fucking head and its killing me to feel this way. why cant i be the normal guy. only out for pussy and no love i wish that was me. i need anti depressants. anti depressant what the fuck am i talking about there is no anti depressant strong enough ive tried.im 2 faced dont be friends with me i promise i will fuck you over. i am receiving mixed signals from tasha, if i went with someone else then i would want it to be her. she puts her arm in mine and tells me she loves me, but then she has a boyfriend and says shes in love with him. i dunno im done with relationships at least until i talk to andrea.

peace out nugga

love

a pointless soul