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i heard some rumors about her i waunder if they are true. if they are i dont care im still behind her 100% and i do still love her with all my heart. no matter what she does she will always be in my heart. even if the rumor is true i still love her. i would do anything just to see her again. im beginning to think that she is just the picture that i keep in my pocket, maybe.....hopefully not. i lay in bed and think about her at night, then when i fall asleep i dream about her. i cant get her out of my head. is this where life ends? not for me i am not a weak person. only the weak surrender to depression, i have depression but i will never surrender my will to see her again will not let me give in. my heart tells me to go on but my head tells me to end it. good think ive always listened to my heart. im not suicidal never have never will be, im just not afraid of death. death is just the next step in life and im ready to take it. dont get me wrong i love life, but the thing is i dont care about it much anymore its not important enough to be to cautious about every thing you do. dont follow rules live life you own way because chances are when you have to work life will change. so live your life now when your young instead of later on when it will put you in jail or take you away from your family. i loved her maybe she loves me lets hope so if not then im fucked and shes a heart breaker. what can you say. you cant pick who you fall in love with i wish i could it would be so much easier. i would never be in love then. love kills. love hurts. love causes death of the weak.