what is wrong with me
my body is filling with depression. i cant feel anything anymore. just the pain that pumps through my system. i need something to kill the memories that are inside my head. i need alcohol. i want someone who understands. i need a new place to stay. a new person to be. a new fucking life. im tired of this bi-polar depressed stage that i am stuck in. im sick of being me. im sick of being concidered gothic. im tired of being looked at because im different. I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I HATE EVERYBODY NO EXEPTIONS. im going to leave my house tonight listening to bright eyes. and stay out for hours. i hate being home its just depressing. but its even more depressing to leave the house during the day. i guess im a night owl and that will never change. im destined to be depressed that is what im here for. so that others can look at me and be glad they arent that unhappy. im not unhappy because of a girl. im just fed up with life. i hope your happy. i never wanted to die until that night when i was laying in your front yard. i hope your fucking happy.