Wow, I felt like I was reading my own story when I read your post! I went through a major serious depression my sophomore year of college. Everything that had been building up my entire life came together at that point and hit me, if that makes sense.
It it helps at all, I feel, not 100%, but 100 times better now. It's been a lot of work, but it's totally worth it. I made the gradually made the choice to change my life in big ways. I moved back home where I had a support system (i.e. my mom who would bug me if I started sleeping all day, friends who would bug me if I started avoiding them, etc.), I got a job (it's pretty incredible what a job will do for your self-esteem and for getting some structure in your life), I eventually started seeing a counselor...
She taught me a lot of things about how to stay together. Exercise (cardio, get your heart-rate up) is really important, even if it's for ten minutes, twice a week. You have to move, change your scenery, get endorphins going in your brain. You need to be doing something, i.e.
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my whole "thing" is that, i hide everything to the point where that i can't find it in myself to admit to my parents ive been like chronically depressed the past ...9? years
so getting a therapist would mean i would need a fair amount of money (especially if medication were involved) that i wouldn't have.... what type of medication do you take? and like.. is it super expensive ? lol or like reasonable enough to if i got a job and worked enough to keep myself busy that i would be able to pay for what i needed?
Yeah, that complicates things a bit. Hopefully you'll eventually be able to talk to your parents about this (it really does help), but I totally understand not being at that point yet, or maybe that's not even an option, period, I don't know.
Let's see, my copay for my therapist visits are $20 with my insurance. If you have insurance through your parents, though, they'll find out. I take Pexeva, which is similar to Paxil. It's an anti-depressant. It you're manic/bipolar as well, it'll probably be more complicated. I pay $40 a month for mine, though, with insurance.
Your school should have some type of counseling program, though, and usually it's something like the first visit is free or something like that. I know it's scary, but that might be something to consider. A counselor could tell you what you needed as far as counseling and medication in that first visit so you have more of an idea of what you'd be "in for" personally.
my schools counseling program is free, butttttt the website implies if you pretty much even mention suicidal thoughts or self mutilation, regardless of your age they tell youo parents admit you somewhere, etc....
Well, I just wouldn't mention that. The main thing is to get professional advice about what to do about your depression. If you feel in real danger of committing suicide in the immediate future, you really do need to get help and keeping it from your parents is just dangerous. I've considered it before, but the fact is is that it is selfish. It helps you, but hurts everyone around you, probably more than you can imagine. And there's no reason for it, because if you get help/learn to cope, your life doesn't have to be so bad! It's a lot of work, but it is so worth it. It's not as impossible as it seems by any means
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It it helps at all, I feel, not 100%, but 100 times better now. It's been a lot of work, but it's totally worth it. I made the gradually made the choice to change my life in big ways. I moved back home where I had a support system (i.e. my mom who would bug me if I started sleeping all day, friends who would bug me if I started avoiding them, etc.), I got a job (it's pretty incredible what a job will do for your self-esteem and for getting some structure in your life), I eventually started seeing a counselor...
She taught me a lot of things about how to stay together. Exercise (cardio, get your heart-rate up) is really important, even if it's for ten minutes, twice a week. You have to move, change your scenery, get endorphins going in your brain. You need to be doing something, i.e. ( ... )
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my whole "thing" is that, i hide everything to the point where that i can't find it in myself to admit to my parents ive been like chronically depressed the past ...9? years
so getting a therapist would mean i would need a fair amount of money (especially if medication were involved) that i wouldn't have....
what type of medication do you take? and like.. is it super expensive ? lol or like reasonable enough to if i got a job and worked enough to keep myself busy that i would be able to pay for what i needed?
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Let's see, my copay for my therapist visits are $20 with my insurance. If you have insurance through your parents, though, they'll find out. I take Pexeva, which is similar to Paxil. It's an anti-depressant. It you're manic/bipolar as well, it'll probably be more complicated. I pay $40 a month for mine, though, with insurance.
Your school should have some type of counseling program, though, and usually it's something like the first visit is free or something like that. I know it's scary, but that might be something to consider. A counselor could tell you what you needed as far as counseling and medication in that first visit so you have more of an idea of what you'd be "in for" personally.
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the website implies if you pretty much even mention suicidal thoughts or self mutilation, regardless of your age they tell youo parents admit you somewhere, etc....
so lol im nervous about going htere
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but i wrote something really nice about how sweet you are and how im glad people like you exist
unfortunatley now that im frustrated it deleted i can't replicate what i wrote lol
but the point is, <3 thank you ill definatley check some of that stuff (podcasts, books) out lol im afraid of the cheesy ones!
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