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First and foremost, it really is all about attitude, attitude, attitude.
This morning I was in a really good mood when Matt dropped me off at the train station. Then the train pulled away as I was crossing the tunnel toward it, and I subsequently found out that it no longer leaves at 7:50, but at 7:46. There were signs up, I guess, but...I was on vacation last week, and apparently it changed last Monday, so...not a lot of notice either way. Whatever.
So I called Matt because for some reason the train thing sent me practically into hysterics. He came back to the train station and we sat in my car for a little while until the next train came. My car has really incredible heating, that's pretty much the only thing it's got going for it, so it was very comforting. What wasn't comforting was the fact that we got talking about California, and it looks like he really isn't coming with us.
I knew this already, to be honest with myself, but I guess I was in denial about it. It's for the best, I know that. We're going off in different directions, and all that rational stuff. But I was crying in the way that just wracks your whole body with sobs, before 8:30 this morning. It was dismal.
But, you know, over the course of the day I've felt a lot better. I keep forgetting how I really can shape my own frame of mind by having a good attitude. Like Penelope Cruz said in Vanilla Sky, good things will happen if you're a good person with a good attitude. Nothing's the end of the world.
Anyway we've still got a good...four or five months together. And then life will evolve. Just have to keep the faith that things will unfold as they should.
This morning I was in a really good mood when Matt dropped me off at the train station. Then the train pulled away as I was crossing the tunnel toward it, and I subsequently found out that it no longer leaves at 7:50, but at 7:46. There were signs up, I guess, but...I was on vacation last week, and apparently it changed last Monday, so...not a lot of notice either way. Whatever.
So I called Matt because for some reason the train thing sent me practically into hysterics. He came back to the train station and we sat in my car for a little while until the next train came. My car has really incredible heating, that's pretty much the only thing it's got going for it, so it was very comforting. What wasn't comforting was the fact that we got talking about California, and it looks like he really isn't coming with us.
I knew this already, to be honest with myself, but I guess I was in denial about it. It's for the best, I know that. We're going off in different directions, and all that rational stuff. But I was crying in the way that just wracks your whole body with sobs, before 8:30 this morning. It was dismal.
But, you know, over the course of the day I've felt a lot better. I keep forgetting how I really can shape my own frame of mind by having a good attitude. Like Penelope Cruz said in Vanilla Sky, good things will happen if you're a good person with a good attitude. Nothing's the end of the world.
Anyway we've still got a good...four or five months together. And then life will evolve. Just have to keep the faith that things will unfold as they should.