Belatedly as usual
So much... has been going on yet nothing really happened. I've been heasitant to even read the journals at times just because of my current torrent of emotions. Not to mention posting simply because of those whom I know read this dribble I call a journal. Surprise surprise... I'm single yet again, once more of my own doing. I just... the feeling of failure permeates everything I do at the moment. It's even lingering heavily around my job. I feel incompetent, like I can't keep up. I got so much I want to accomplish and I spend the time tacking away on the computer... even if I am staring at a blank psp pallet and nothing else. Self motivation, I know, is one of my biggest problems.
On top of being psuedo depressed (more of a melancholy I'm having a hard time shaking,) I feel rather wretched for the pain I've caused Theon, despite actually caring about him. Though his friend is right, I've dated most of my male friends so... yeah, just some floozy he'll get over in no time anyway.
I've got to stop moping and work on a website or something.
On top of being psuedo depressed (more of a melancholy I'm having a hard time shaking,) I feel rather wretched for the pain I've caused Theon, despite actually caring about him. Though his friend is right, I've dated most of my male friends so... yeah, just some floozy he'll get over in no time anyway.
I've got to stop moping and work on a website or something.