cant sleep
Cant sleep, and i'm still 164.0 lbs. That worries me... morning weight will probably be somewhere in the 163 area. But why do i feel like i've been fasting for days...?? I even ate today. But I am not coherent. I feel weak. And i even almost blacked out today. I dunno i guess it's bc i really barely eat. Consume minimum calories...But for some reason i'm not losing dramatically. Very slowly, if at all.
I'm still hungry.
Next week i think i need to change my day to day basis around. Do what i did [2 times] before, bc it worked. But it is HARD work. That's why i havent done it yet bc it's SO much work and i've been lazy. Trying to lose weight the "easy" way, though it's not that incredibly easy starving yourself for days. So on Monday, I'll have exactly 3 weeks, which is exactly how long it has taken on both conditions. But what I have to do is swim 50 laps, elliptical 1 hr and walk 1 hr, EVERYDAY for 3 weeks straight. In doing so, i'll allow myself one piece of wheat bread and 3 pieces of turkey daily.
I think it's harder for me to go with less food now bc i'm so heavy and when you're lighter you dont need as much food to function, so it was easier back then.
But the only problem with my plan is that i have no motivation. Well, that's not completely true, i do have motivation, but nothing compared to the last time i did this. Ohhh, what to do.
I dont even know if i'll be able to function on bread and turkey since i'm so much heavier...but hopefully by Monday somehow i will be thinner. Omg, if i'm not in the 150's i'm gonna freak. Supposed to be like 154 or something, HA! yeah ok. I'm just hoping for any 150.
And now not only am i obsessive about weigh-ins, but i'm obsessive about trying to pee, bc when i pee i can weigh myself for [hopefully] a lower weight than previously.
I'm still hungry.
Next week i think i need to change my day to day basis around. Do what i did [2 times] before, bc it worked. But it is HARD work. That's why i havent done it yet bc it's SO much work and i've been lazy. Trying to lose weight the "easy" way, though it's not that incredibly easy starving yourself for days. So on Monday, I'll have exactly 3 weeks, which is exactly how long it has taken on both conditions. But what I have to do is swim 50 laps, elliptical 1 hr and walk 1 hr, EVERYDAY for 3 weeks straight. In doing so, i'll allow myself one piece of wheat bread and 3 pieces of turkey daily.
I think it's harder for me to go with less food now bc i'm so heavy and when you're lighter you dont need as much food to function, so it was easier back then.
But the only problem with my plan is that i have no motivation. Well, that's not completely true, i do have motivation, but nothing compared to the last time i did this. Ohhh, what to do.
I dont even know if i'll be able to function on bread and turkey since i'm so much heavier...but hopefully by Monday somehow i will be thinner. Omg, if i'm not in the 150's i'm gonna freak. Supposed to be like 154 or something, HA! yeah ok. I'm just hoping for any 150.
And now not only am i obsessive about weigh-ins, but i'm obsessive about trying to pee, bc when i pee i can weigh myself for [hopefully] a lower weight than previously.