Plop....plop.....plop!
No more meat, products containing meat, or anything made with meat, red meat that is. What an awful morning!
As for life....I'm glad to see rough spots pass....to see things back to how I want them and how they should be. Life seems so wonderful as of recent, I just want to get out of bed and do things finally. I wake up and read or write or clean, well not so much clean cause that's pretty boring. I am really glad that my relationship with Crista has improved, much better we are as friends although I am still very sorry of how things happened and what I did. It is a sore spot in my history.
I am going to school this semester, I have finally decided. Winter break was break enough for me. I feel reenergized, and I have a support system and I feel as though I have to go back, that I need to tackle school and get it out of the way. For some reason I am hungry for knowledge (cheesy I know). I am rather excited to go back, and I have not be excited about school in atleast 5 years....I am going to focus on history now. A recent run in with the History Channel and a certain someone pointing out how I was narrating before the narrator, as well as adding facts....I dunno, it just seems right. Besides, if I were to be a true band geek, I don't think that we would fit as nicely. I can't imagine 2 stressed directors at festival time...although I am sure we could relax things. Hopefully I will get hold of a course book and finger my way through on the drive to Menchey's. That is if I am welcome and can make it.
I have to say that I am excited to go if I can and all. Just because I want some music. All the music I have a ensemble pieces and music from my 5th grade lessons with Mrs. Marcantoni. Granted the pieces are some what challenging, well kinda, but since I have played them repeatedly since the 5th grade I have decided that it is time for new. I am just hoping that things are laid out decently and that I can be pointed in the right direction as he target shops....Now that I think about it going is sorta pointless since I gave my flute to Ms Yo yo ma! Well I am still excited and want to go anyway. I am still afraid of invading personal space and crossing boundries and such. I am trying to keep my nose OUT of business but sometimes you are just curious. Sometimes when you don't express yourself you are hurt all too much.
Things are all better. Life is good. Hurtles have seem to fall and life is happy again. I wish that last night was every night, but I guess you just have to wait for the pieces of your life to fall into place. No need to rush them, things will happen as they do. I think what I have learned that is of most importance is to enjoy whats around you now, cause once it's gone it's gone and from this I've learned to quit thinking ahead. Here and now is wonderful and although I want it forever, I have to accept that it is out of my control. I guess I can still hope though....
To a certain Bowman! : WTF? Why wasn't I invited! How come you didn't come see me?!
To Cup : Good luck, you are already in surgery now but I am sure you'll come out fine!
To You : Thanks and love
As for life....I'm glad to see rough spots pass....to see things back to how I want them and how they should be. Life seems so wonderful as of recent, I just want to get out of bed and do things finally. I wake up and read or write or clean, well not so much clean cause that's pretty boring. I am really glad that my relationship with Crista has improved, much better we are as friends although I am still very sorry of how things happened and what I did. It is a sore spot in my history.
I am going to school this semester, I have finally decided. Winter break was break enough for me. I feel reenergized, and I have a support system and I feel as though I have to go back, that I need to tackle school and get it out of the way. For some reason I am hungry for knowledge (cheesy I know). I am rather excited to go back, and I have not be excited about school in atleast 5 years....I am going to focus on history now. A recent run in with the History Channel and a certain someone pointing out how I was narrating before the narrator, as well as adding facts....I dunno, it just seems right. Besides, if I were to be a true band geek, I don't think that we would fit as nicely. I can't imagine 2 stressed directors at festival time...although I am sure we could relax things. Hopefully I will get hold of a course book and finger my way through on the drive to Menchey's. That is if I am welcome and can make it.
I have to say that I am excited to go if I can and all. Just because I want some music. All the music I have a ensemble pieces and music from my 5th grade lessons with Mrs. Marcantoni. Granted the pieces are some what challenging, well kinda, but since I have played them repeatedly since the 5th grade I have decided that it is time for new. I am just hoping that things are laid out decently and that I can be pointed in the right direction as he target shops....Now that I think about it going is sorta pointless since I gave my flute to Ms Yo yo ma! Well I am still excited and want to go anyway. I am still afraid of invading personal space and crossing boundries and such. I am trying to keep my nose OUT of business but sometimes you are just curious. Sometimes when you don't express yourself you are hurt all too much.
Things are all better. Life is good. Hurtles have seem to fall and life is happy again. I wish that last night was every night, but I guess you just have to wait for the pieces of your life to fall into place. No need to rush them, things will happen as they do. I think what I have learned that is of most importance is to enjoy whats around you now, cause once it's gone it's gone and from this I've learned to quit thinking ahead. Here and now is wonderful and although I want it forever, I have to accept that it is out of my control. I guess I can still hope though....
To a certain Bowman! : WTF? Why wasn't I invited! How come you didn't come see me?!
To Cup : Good luck, you are already in surgery now but I am sure you'll come out fine!
To You : Thanks and love