every new beginning...
...comes from some other beginnings end
Yes, sappy but it fits.
I think it is important to revisit and reflect on life, on choices made and events that occured and most importantly their results, meanings and effects on you and the world you live in. Reflecting in another's journal can be very rewarding. To full see the effects that you hold on an individual is an amazing self esteem booster, you just feel really good to say the least. After proper reflection tonight, I am glad that I have been able to add so much to someone's life. It's also rather stressful to comprehend those effects, to understand and deal with the pressure that your presents creates. In the end however, the rewards always seem to out-weigh the stresses, and all the work is well worth it. Time and patients always prevail and in the end, happiness is granted.
In my current state of blah-ness I am able to best reflect on things of this nature, like the impact of a certain dinner on September 23rd, the deaths of important people, possible life decisions and choices....then I am just depressed, but not to an unreasonable extent. I guess it's SAD, I feel you on that babe. Maybe some new light bulbs or something....
To say the least, I hate the holiday season. I guess mainly because I remember when "Happy Atheist Children Get Presents Day" was a joyous event that involved good friends and family with lots of "substances", food and presents from lots of people. Most of those have vanished, some have been replaced, some returned, and hopefully some will never leave again. This "holiday season" should be interesting, my first "christmas" at home in 6 years. To be honest I'm not sure how long I will be able to tolerate it. I"ll probably find myself running to my haven. Sometime you don't even need a body, just a scent...
To end, because it is now official the eve of Christmas and I am depressed about my shopping endeavours and have to work in the morning, I will say that the last week has been shaky, but I assume that things will continue at a mediocre blah-ness till the arrival of true spring time and my first spring time activities like picnics, hikes and such. It's amazing how a day in some park of nothing just walking around and climbing and then stopping to eat or feeding ducks and resting in a field and just sappy dumb stuff, it's amazing what it can do to you, how you can be totally revitalized from your winter slumbers....I can't wait for spring. For hikes and streams, perhaps a get away if possible....camping, I love camping. Isolation from the everyday grind...the scents, the animals, the nature, it's great. Walking all day...food, flowers and fires. Cooking over fire is great! But it is late, and I must venture off to bed, to regain some energy that has been viciously sucked from me by the evil villian known as Mars! Good night! Sleep tight!
Yes, sappy but it fits.
I think it is important to revisit and reflect on life, on choices made and events that occured and most importantly their results, meanings and effects on you and the world you live in. Reflecting in another's journal can be very rewarding. To full see the effects that you hold on an individual is an amazing self esteem booster, you just feel really good to say the least. After proper reflection tonight, I am glad that I have been able to add so much to someone's life. It's also rather stressful to comprehend those effects, to understand and deal with the pressure that your presents creates. In the end however, the rewards always seem to out-weigh the stresses, and all the work is well worth it. Time and patients always prevail and in the end, happiness is granted.
In my current state of blah-ness I am able to best reflect on things of this nature, like the impact of a certain dinner on September 23rd, the deaths of important people, possible life decisions and choices....then I am just depressed, but not to an unreasonable extent. I guess it's SAD, I feel you on that babe. Maybe some new light bulbs or something....
To say the least, I hate the holiday season. I guess mainly because I remember when "Happy Atheist Children Get Presents Day" was a joyous event that involved good friends and family with lots of "substances", food and presents from lots of people. Most of those have vanished, some have been replaced, some returned, and hopefully some will never leave again. This "holiday season" should be interesting, my first "christmas" at home in 6 years. To be honest I'm not sure how long I will be able to tolerate it. I"ll probably find myself running to my haven. Sometime you don't even need a body, just a scent...
To end, because it is now official the eve of Christmas and I am depressed about my shopping endeavours and have to work in the morning, I will say that the last week has been shaky, but I assume that things will continue at a mediocre blah-ness till the arrival of true spring time and my first spring time activities like picnics, hikes and such. It's amazing how a day in some park of nothing just walking around and climbing and then stopping to eat or feeding ducks and resting in a field and just sappy dumb stuff, it's amazing what it can do to you, how you can be totally revitalized from your winter slumbers....I can't wait for spring. For hikes and streams, perhaps a get away if possible....camping, I love camping. Isolation from the everyday grind...the scents, the animals, the nature, it's great. Walking all day...food, flowers and fires. Cooking over fire is great! But it is late, and I must venture off to bed, to regain some energy that has been viciously sucked from me by the evil villian known as Mars! Good night! Sleep tight!