Oct 28, 2003 23:38
So I am a little disquieted right now. But I know I did the right thing in the situation I just found myself in.
I was hanging out with this guy Gerald I know, right? Now, I don't flirt with this guy or anything. Yeah, he's cute and nice, but he's a pothead. So any crush I had on him was gone the moment it began (which was when I first met him at the beginning of the semester). But I still hang out with him every once in a while. So we were just in his room watching TV with his roommate. Then Gerald realizes that he needs to go get the rest of his laundry and asks me to come. I decided to come up here to work on the English paper that I've been trying to work on yet keep procrastinating about all day. Next thing I know we're walking down the hallway and the guy is leaning over to kiss me.
WHOA! Hold it!!
Totally had to push the guy away. Wow. I've never been in a situation like this before. I'm so upset right now. I didn't realize it was like that for him at all. I just really wish I could talk to David. But he's not answering his phone.
Gerald kept moving closer and closer to me while we were in his room. But I didn't think anything of it at the time. But in retrospect I'd say I should have. Geez. I'd say things are going to be a bit awkward between us now. Damnit. I have a class with this guy. I really don't want to deal with this.
Where the hell is David. >_< I am so uncomfortable right now. I feel guilty that I've even put myself in that kind of situation.
on loving,
hind sight