to forever torment me that i wish i'd never known you at all
*oh the ocean rows us away, and i lose your hand through the waves*
i miss school. i've never said that before; but i do. i miss seeing all of my friends and having plans just about every night of the week. i don't know it's like i half expected to return from college and the summer would be great, but so far it hasn't been. i've been on maybe a total of 4 dates with 2 different people [i'll get to that in a minute]...and i've maybe seen like, 10 people i graduated with [outside of random run-ins] and that just kind of upsets me. not to mention that i have like no hours at work so i'm always bored. and i need to find a new job..
now back to the boy situation:
okay, most of you know the josh situation...but most of you don't know the details or whatever..so i'll leave it at this: we aren't dating. we're still "talking". if that. i mean, we hang out and we seem to like eachother but idk..he doesn't get his act together or something [and the girl should never be the one to pursue the guy, so i don't]...but that's the thing: idk if i really even want to deal with this anymore. this whole "let's just hang out and not date but like eachother" thing isn't really cutting it anymore. summer is a month over, so the hopes of a summer boyfriend have kind of passed. and it bothers me that as soon as he and i split to go back to school, we'll do the exact same thing we did last year...come home on weekends to date. what kind of sense does that make? none. and besides, we hardly even talk anymore....so i'm beginning to think i'll just give up on he and i or whatever you wanna call it. and here he is planning us a trip to go to the beach...but how fun is a beach getaway going to be if we aren't actually dating, just kind of...?
another boy situation: like i said, i've been on maybe 4 or 5 dates all summer...which sucks when you're single. and it's like...i'm afraid to go out with too many people b/c that always winds up in disaster. i either get caught between liking more than one, or one gets mad b/c he's not the only one i ever go on a date with...and yeah i just don't wanna deal with that. so i really don't know what i'm complaining about other than life seemed better while away at college because my dating options were limitless...and here in good ole botetourt they're kind of limited. i only go out with the same 2 or 3 people i have been for a long time now...that and there aren't really many places to "go on a date" here...we don't have a lot to offer...
yea, i guess that was my rant for the time being...here's to a new beginning hopefully.
i miss school. i've never said that before; but i do. i miss seeing all of my friends and having plans just about every night of the week. i don't know it's like i half expected to return from college and the summer would be great, but so far it hasn't been. i've been on maybe a total of 4 dates with 2 different people [i'll get to that in a minute]...and i've maybe seen like, 10 people i graduated with [outside of random run-ins] and that just kind of upsets me. not to mention that i have like no hours at work so i'm always bored. and i need to find a new job..
now back to the boy situation:
okay, most of you know the josh situation...but most of you don't know the details or whatever..so i'll leave it at this: we aren't dating. we're still "talking". if that. i mean, we hang out and we seem to like eachother but idk..he doesn't get his act together or something [and the girl should never be the one to pursue the guy, so i don't]...but that's the thing: idk if i really even want to deal with this anymore. this whole "let's just hang out and not date but like eachother" thing isn't really cutting it anymore. summer is a month over, so the hopes of a summer boyfriend have kind of passed. and it bothers me that as soon as he and i split to go back to school, we'll do the exact same thing we did last year...come home on weekends to date. what kind of sense does that make? none. and besides, we hardly even talk anymore....so i'm beginning to think i'll just give up on he and i or whatever you wanna call it. and here he is planning us a trip to go to the beach...but how fun is a beach getaway going to be if we aren't actually dating, just kind of...?
another boy situation: like i said, i've been on maybe 4 or 5 dates all summer...which sucks when you're single. and it's like...i'm afraid to go out with too many people b/c that always winds up in disaster. i either get caught between liking more than one, or one gets mad b/c he's not the only one i ever go on a date with...and yeah i just don't wanna deal with that. so i really don't know what i'm complaining about other than life seemed better while away at college because my dating options were limitless...and here in good ole botetourt they're kind of limited. i only go out with the same 2 or 3 people i have been for a long time now...that and there aren't really many places to "go on a date" here...we don't have a lot to offer...
yea, i guess that was my rant for the time being...here's to a new beginning hopefully.