i never really lost control
i just realized i never had it..
well--it's the final countdown. one week of class left then 3 exams. i'm starting to feel my freshman year slip away--and what have i got to show for it? yea, i've made a few pretty good friends, i've lost slash regained a few..and i found my calling. but will all of that change come summer?[mind you, college summer is the FULL 3 months]..and most of my newer friends are from very far away...not to mention the boy situation.
there's quite a bit of that drama going on:
boy # 1: i've got this one guy who basically stalks me [he's sweet and genuine, trouble is--i don't feel attracted to him..as if i'm not content with him (i don't know if it's his looks, or the fact that he's a junior and i'm a freshman, and he's kind of dorky)] i'm just simply not head over heels with him as he is with me. i'm serious. this guy is borderline stalker. and since i have a problem with confrontation--i can't flat-out tell him how i feel. i want to so badly; but can't/ don't know how to break it to him. i want to just be friends--with nothing more. ahhh.
boy # 2: i like him. plain and simple---this is the guy i would love to be "in a relationship" with. he's sweet, funny, a sophomore, he's faithful--but knows how to party too [which is a quality i actually want--a guy who knows how to have fun, responsibly] and very attractive. like--half italian attractive. and i know there's something there. it's just one of those things that i know. but he's a mechanical engineer and in the marching virginians--so he's usually very busy. and we typically only hang out on fri and saturday nights [that's okay though]....but like i said, we only have 1.5 weeks of school left before he moves back to Pennslyvania for a month and a half [he'll then be back here in the 'Burg for some summer classes] so i'll see him in June. but still---i wanna know there's gonna be more someday. again--i can't be content with what i actually have or don't have...i just want to know if there's more.
[on a separate note: he's planning to come to my house/swimming/hot tub/meet the family next weekend the 3rd. and we were gonna go downtown and go to the star]--so i guess if all that goes down---i could know a little more about the situation.. =)
boy # 3: i actually dated this one. or so we'll call it "dating". he goes to ODU and will be home in 2 weeks--we were supposed to start hanging out again until he goes to europe. BUT----now he's in a relationship. WHAT?!?!?! I MEAN HONESTLY, I DIDN'T SEE THAT COMING. I'M ACTUALLY KIND OF HURT. not that i really thought we would date again--but i guess i kinf of hoped we would. i mean, i have liked him somewhat since last year--and i know he liked me too. WHATEVER. i'm happy for them i guess?! [i need to date a guy here at Tech anyway]
and..that's basically all the boy drama i have---on a good note, Josh Armour is coming to Tech next year and i'm excited for that! haha we've gotten pretty close this year [much like Jason and i have] and it's just exciting that there will be more kids from Botetourt here with me
yeah---final countdown. and i'm losing it =/
well--it's the final countdown. one week of class left then 3 exams. i'm starting to feel my freshman year slip away--and what have i got to show for it? yea, i've made a few pretty good friends, i've lost slash regained a few..and i found my calling. but will all of that change come summer?[mind you, college summer is the FULL 3 months]..and most of my newer friends are from very far away...not to mention the boy situation.
there's quite a bit of that drama going on:
boy # 1: i've got this one guy who basically stalks me [he's sweet and genuine, trouble is--i don't feel attracted to him..as if i'm not content with him (i don't know if it's his looks, or the fact that he's a junior and i'm a freshman, and he's kind of dorky)] i'm just simply not head over heels with him as he is with me. i'm serious. this guy is borderline stalker. and since i have a problem with confrontation--i can't flat-out tell him how i feel. i want to so badly; but can't/ don't know how to break it to him. i want to just be friends--with nothing more. ahhh.
boy # 2: i like him. plain and simple---this is the guy i would love to be "in a relationship" with. he's sweet, funny, a sophomore, he's faithful--but knows how to party too [which is a quality i actually want--a guy who knows how to have fun, responsibly] and very attractive. like--half italian attractive. and i know there's something there. it's just one of those things that i know. but he's a mechanical engineer and in the marching virginians--so he's usually very busy. and we typically only hang out on fri and saturday nights [that's okay though]....but like i said, we only have 1.5 weeks of school left before he moves back to Pennslyvania for a month and a half [he'll then be back here in the 'Burg for some summer classes] so i'll see him in June. but still---i wanna know there's gonna be more someday. again--i can't be content with what i actually have or don't have...i just want to know if there's more.
[on a separate note: he's planning to come to my house/swimming/hot tub/meet the family next weekend the 3rd. and we were gonna go downtown and go to the star]--so i guess if all that goes down---i could know a little more about the situation.. =)
boy # 3: i actually dated this one. or so we'll call it "dating". he goes to ODU and will be home in 2 weeks--we were supposed to start hanging out again until he goes to europe. BUT----now he's in a relationship. WHAT?!?!?! I MEAN HONESTLY, I DIDN'T SEE THAT COMING. I'M ACTUALLY KIND OF HURT. not that i really thought we would date again--but i guess i kinf of hoped we would. i mean, i have liked him somewhat since last year--and i know he liked me too. WHATEVER. i'm happy for them i guess?! [i need to date a guy here at Tech anyway]
and..that's basically all the boy drama i have---on a good note, Josh Armour is coming to Tech next year and i'm excited for that! haha we've gotten pretty close this year [much like Jason and i have] and it's just exciting that there will be more kids from Botetourt here with me
yeah---final countdown. and i'm losing it =/