thinking alot about this (i wish i could hold him in my arms) but sometimes wishes dont come true)
im thinking right now of how much i want to call randy and tell him how much i want him back, and how much i really really miss him, even though we are not talking right now, i still miss him.i wish he could just talk to me about all this so i could know how i feel, and help me understand how he is feeling, because i love him so much its so hard not to say goodnight to him and give him a hug and kiss and say i love you. i miss that so much, but i did not cry today, i was trying to hook up aaron with kendra its working out really well too. which is cool if i caint be with someone and love them why not make someonelse happy. i just love him so much, hes he;ped me so much with everything and i caint let go i really really wnat to call him, or him to call me and just talk to me. that would just make me feel so better, and it would make me feel that way because i would know what he was feeling. but i dont think that will happen, i think he hates me right now, but i still want to be his friend, and all that good stuff, but i dont think he wants to do that anymore, i still want to have sex with him so much he is so good at it and we make good love together, and have fun with it i love him caint stop thinking about him, caint stop loveing him.i just caint, caint sleep. i love him i dont want to soound like a psycho but i caint help love ing somenon so much as this