I feel like I've lost my soul
I broke up with Jason tonight... officially. I bawled my eyes out. Honestly I don't even know what to say. It just doesn't seem real because we've gone through this a billion times. I feel alone and lost, like there's nothing left of me. Am I even doing the right thing? I guess if we're meant to be together we'll be together someday. It really does suck but I think this might be a good thing. Jason really needs to take some time and focus on himself for awhile. He's going through a lot and I guess I didn't really help by putting this on him but I couldn't put it off any longer. Now I'm dateless for Lauren's wedding on Saturday. I really wish we could still go together but who am I kidding? Like he's going to do that for me. I've been looking forward to this wedding for a LONG time, and it's just one more thing I get to ruin. Awsome. Not to mention we won't be attending Birthday Bash. So I took this weekend off for nothing. I need to get out of here. Maybe I'll take my own little road trip this weekend. Maybe...