Upset
It seems like I'm always upset lately, and I know why. It's because there is this certain person in my life who has the worst mood swings ever! Yes, we're talking about Jason. We got over the whole thing that happened with the parade and we actually had a couple of really good days. We were both in good moods, and played games at my house, went rollerblading, took pictures, and just joked around with each other. We were both really easy going. But like I've said before, we'll have 2 good days followed by 8 bad ones. His mood changes instantly, and if I haven't seen him in awhile I have to be cautious because I never know exactly what mood he'll be in. And he can be extremely nice to other people but then be a total dick to me. I'm getting really sick of it. I shouldn't have to constantly be on my toes around him. Isn't he the person I'm supposed to be able to be myself with? Shouldn't I be the most comfortable with him? Well I can tell you it's not that way anymore. In certain situations I try to talk to him about what's going on and he tells me he's upset or annoyed with someone else, yet he still takes it out on me. He takes everything out on me! Yesterday we were all having a good time at Kevin and Laura's... playing games and whatnot. Of course Jason was moody, and I'm not the only one who noticed. EVERYONE noticed, but he doesn't think anyone else can tell when he's being cranky. Ok yeah, I'll give it to him that he worked 12 hours and may have been tired, but come on. You don't have to be a douchebag. But whatever, I'm over it. I'm just not gonna give a crap anymore. If he wants to go sulk in a corner, go for it! I've been having a great time with my friends and even by myself. I have plenty of stuff to do to keep me busy. It's summer finally and I am going to enjoy it, not worry about pleasing the boy who can never be happy.
Besides all of that, my friend Catrina is home for 3 weeks and I got to see her yesterday!! She's 7 months pregnant and looks adorable!!! I love playing with her tummy. She came to hang out last night with everyone, and we all got along, so that was fantastic! The girls all love her and she said she had a blast. I have tons of pictures to put up on myspace.
Anyways, I have a lot of stuff going on this weekend. Friday morning I'm going to help my mom with the kids in Grand Haven, so that's a VERY early morning, then I have to go to work 3-8, then Amanda and Michael are having a bond fire (which Jason is invited to, but who knows if he'll go) so I'll probably be there pretty late. Then Saturday morning I gotta get up to work and RIGHT after work I'm heading back to GH to babysit the kids (probably alone because I can't count on Jason for anything) and that'll be til about midnight. Then I have to get up early Sunday morning for Church Nursery then go right to work from there! I'm gonna be exhausted! Oh well, I'll make it through. c ya!
Besides all of that, my friend Catrina is home for 3 weeks and I got to see her yesterday!! She's 7 months pregnant and looks adorable!!! I love playing with her tummy. She came to hang out last night with everyone, and we all got along, so that was fantastic! The girls all love her and she said she had a blast. I have tons of pictures to put up on myspace.
Anyways, I have a lot of stuff going on this weekend. Friday morning I'm going to help my mom with the kids in Grand Haven, so that's a VERY early morning, then I have to go to work 3-8, then Amanda and Michael are having a bond fire (which Jason is invited to, but who knows if he'll go) so I'll probably be there pretty late. Then Saturday morning I gotta get up to work and RIGHT after work I'm heading back to GH to babysit the kids (probably alone because I can't count on Jason for anything) and that'll be til about midnight. Then I have to get up early Sunday morning for Church Nursery then go right to work from there! I'm gonna be exhausted! Oh well, I'll make it through. c ya!