matt leary, matt cash, i cant take anymore mattness
Well well….i have accomplished none of my tasks this weekend, simply due to the fact that I am unmotivated and I can not focus. So its going to be a long night tonight and again tomorrow night. Oh well… school sucks
Matt Cash and I have nothing. Which makes me sad. He is an extremely attractive guy but I cant put up with all the little stuff. And the big stuff …LIES! Anyways, to bad too because I really did like him, or so I thought anyways.
Next weekend is gonna be awesome! FSU here I come! And to support the gators so watch out! I really hope I have a good time. I am sure that I will though. I have been talking to nic again…. I really miss him…. And I feel terrible about everything I did. We will see that happens though….
I had a very interesting night last night. With meg and elise, but it’s a really long story … basically matt cash lied to me (said he couldn’t hang out bc he was to tired so he wanted to go home after work and not drive all the way to Niceville, bc its like a 45 minute drive), I caught him in a lie (he went to RAVE with some random girl and I saw him there), and he says he never lied (WTF), and blah… its all just stupid and childish and a waste of my time. I am sick of trying, I want to find a guy that tries. I want a guy to be so wrapped up in me. I want to be someones everything…
After all that happened I went to starbucks and got some hot cocoa. When I got home I was sick , and out came the cocoa… it was no fun. Also while I was in the movies with Meg and Elise, matt leary called…. I couldn’t answer. I called him back today and he said he was just calling to see how life it. How nice of him. I hate missing him the way that I do. I think I will be okay if I can get through tomorrow.
Tomorrow I have so much to do….I am sad…. And tomorrow is going to be hard. I hate being sad …. I absolutely hate it! I am so sick of feeling like this… after tomorrow everything will get better I know it will. I am trying to have faith that this is all part of a bigger plan… I found out today that matt goes to church with Lindsey,… I don’t know why but that really bothered me. One part of me is happy that he has someone to share that with. The other part of me is jealous… that was our thing…I know that is selfish of me… and I shouldn’t feel that way. But I cant help it!
Matt Cash and I have nothing. Which makes me sad. He is an extremely attractive guy but I cant put up with all the little stuff. And the big stuff …LIES! Anyways, to bad too because I really did like him, or so I thought anyways.
Next weekend is gonna be awesome! FSU here I come! And to support the gators so watch out! I really hope I have a good time. I am sure that I will though. I have been talking to nic again…. I really miss him…. And I feel terrible about everything I did. We will see that happens though….
I had a very interesting night last night. With meg and elise, but it’s a really long story … basically matt cash lied to me (said he couldn’t hang out bc he was to tired so he wanted to go home after work and not drive all the way to Niceville, bc its like a 45 minute drive), I caught him in a lie (he went to RAVE with some random girl and I saw him there), and he says he never lied (WTF), and blah… its all just stupid and childish and a waste of my time. I am sick of trying, I want to find a guy that tries. I want a guy to be so wrapped up in me. I want to be someones everything…
After all that happened I went to starbucks and got some hot cocoa. When I got home I was sick , and out came the cocoa… it was no fun. Also while I was in the movies with Meg and Elise, matt leary called…. I couldn’t answer. I called him back today and he said he was just calling to see how life it. How nice of him. I hate missing him the way that I do. I think I will be okay if I can get through tomorrow.
Tomorrow I have so much to do….I am sad…. And tomorrow is going to be hard. I hate being sad …. I absolutely hate it! I am so sick of feeling like this… after tomorrow everything will get better I know it will. I am trying to have faith that this is all part of a bigger plan… I found out today that matt goes to church with Lindsey,… I don’t know why but that really bothered me. One part of me is happy that he has someone to share that with. The other part of me is jealous… that was our thing…I know that is selfish of me… and I shouldn’t feel that way. But I cant help it!