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Today sucked..
My progress report looked like the whole fucking alphabet! I have a D in English and math, in english because none of my make up work had been averaged in and in my math cuz mrs. smith hasn't taught shit all year--I dont even know what to fucking do anymore. I have a 68. 8 or something which is almost a C, so If i keep doing my hw it should come up but who friggin knows. I wish she would just get up and teach, I dont think I can tolerate another class where she just writes an assignment on the board and tells us she isn't going to help us--thats bullshit...
After school I went over to Charles and we hung out at his house wrestling and watching tv until his mom got home and made him try on tuxes for the wedding. He has to wear a bow tie--HA HA! lol After that we went to the mall to pick out a new shirt for gradnite, cuz the one I had though uber cute was inappropriate and he picked out an outfit to go to Roxy tonight. He asked me if I wanted to go but I made a bunch of lame excuses no to go. For one, I didn't want him to worry about making sure I was happy all night and secondly I didn't want to see him all up on other girls. I mean, ive seen him dance with alot of girls and I was feeling real emotional tonight and I wasn't up for it. We ended up buying another shirt from Forever 21 and we picked out a shirt from Demo for him, hes going to look really cute in it with his chain and all. The whole time we were at the mall boys kept trying to holla at me, a bunch of his friends would ask "aye, thats you?" and he'd say "naw we just friends" --which we are, but its just weird though cuz he use to say yea thats me or aye watch yourself or something. I mean, he wouldn't offer me to anyone but its just weird knowing that we aren't officially together anymore. I wonder does he care if guys are hitting on me, does he still want to get defensive like he use to, whats going on through his head. I dont know, maybe I should start talking to other guys. I mean, right now im still completely devoted to Charles and thats all I really want but if it takes me being with other guys to get us back to the friendship level I guess id have to do it. I dont know, I have no idea whats best, I just wish it was all easy...
My progress report looked like the whole fucking alphabet! I have a D in English and math, in english because none of my make up work had been averaged in and in my math cuz mrs. smith hasn't taught shit all year--I dont even know what to fucking do anymore. I have a 68. 8 or something which is almost a C, so If i keep doing my hw it should come up but who friggin knows. I wish she would just get up and teach, I dont think I can tolerate another class where she just writes an assignment on the board and tells us she isn't going to help us--thats bullshit...
After school I went over to Charles and we hung out at his house wrestling and watching tv until his mom got home and made him try on tuxes for the wedding. He has to wear a bow tie--HA HA! lol After that we went to the mall to pick out a new shirt for gradnite, cuz the one I had though uber cute was inappropriate and he picked out an outfit to go to Roxy tonight. He asked me if I wanted to go but I made a bunch of lame excuses no to go. For one, I didn't want him to worry about making sure I was happy all night and secondly I didn't want to see him all up on other girls. I mean, ive seen him dance with alot of girls and I was feeling real emotional tonight and I wasn't up for it. We ended up buying another shirt from Forever 21 and we picked out a shirt from Demo for him, hes going to look really cute in it with his chain and all. The whole time we were at the mall boys kept trying to holla at me, a bunch of his friends would ask "aye, thats you?" and he'd say "naw we just friends" --which we are, but its just weird though cuz he use to say yea thats me or aye watch yourself or something. I mean, he wouldn't offer me to anyone but its just weird knowing that we aren't officially together anymore. I wonder does he care if guys are hitting on me, does he still want to get defensive like he use to, whats going on through his head. I dont know, maybe I should start talking to other guys. I mean, right now im still completely devoted to Charles and thats all I really want but if it takes me being with other guys to get us back to the friendship level I guess id have to do it. I dont know, I have no idea whats best, I just wish it was all easy...