You're right.... Every bit I've written and meant what I said..... And I did have reservations, about time and location coming here..... By the end, I fucked up a lot of things, I've never been good at not understanding things that directly effect me.... And I became a major douche. I never wanted to come here and make you feel cornered, or trapped.... or just invade.... your space....
As for someone I barely used to know. what do you expect me to think.... I've tried talking to you on my end... asked questions, posted funny things I thought you'd get a kick out of.... you've never responded..... And in fact, I had found you instead erased years of crap you had posted on mine..... And though, I am quite happy to hear you weren't upset I had basically sort of ambushed and talked to you, You kind of make it clear you aren't interested in talking....
And don't ever think it's easy to ignore you, it was the hardest thing I've done.... keeping silent hoping maybe you'd at least say hey...... I also meant what I said when I said I missed talking, any and all stupid crap with you..... And I never change paths to avoid you..... I always turn left at whatever that building is to go to mine.... I only changed to be able to try to talk the first time I saw you..... And even though this is going to sound really fucking stalkerish....... but I always look for you in the mornings..... It's sad because I don't think you care to see me.... But always makes me happy to see you around.
None of this is meant to be an attack or angry rant.... I even tried to lighten it up..... But like you, I was just trying to be honest and say what and why I thought what I did. I don't think you know how hard it was to talk to you that once..... Or maybe you do as you didn't say anything the last time either...... As I said before , had I really thought about it, I probably would've lost my nerve.... and just stayed out of your way.
I'm sorry about writing so damn much..... I still have a hard time speaking, easily? I have to in depth explain everything.......
Bah. Forget I said anything. I know you've probably already gotten the email with my previous reply, but disregard it. I will say I don't talk much because what I do say is thrown back at me. Never taken at face value. I get tired of defending myself against it and it's not fair. I feel like you're just itching for conflict when you take something as simple as "I found it pleasant"-a positive thing- and bastardize what I said into "weren't upset about"- a not positive thing. Small change, but still insulting to me as it does change the whole meaning. It pushes a button you damn well know not to. Also you need to take timing into consideration. Person A is approached by Person B. B talks to A. A responds and keeps things light. A and B part ways to go to work. Person B complains about the whole thing on the Internet later. Person A sees this. Next time Person A sees Person B, they keep quiet. Person B thinks they are owed a "hello" and asks "would it have been so hard to say something?"....
That's a little backwards, don't you think? And what you keep telling me, that you miss talking and yadda yadda... it is in direct conflict with what you write, and say you mean every bit of.
I think the best way to put it is this: You make it so trying to talk to you is work. And I'm unwilling to do any work here. It shouldn't be work.
As for someone I barely used to know. what do you expect me to think.... I've tried talking to you on my end... asked questions, posted funny things I thought you'd get a kick out of.... you've never responded..... And in fact, I had found you instead erased years of crap you had posted on mine..... And though, I am quite happy to hear you weren't upset I had basically sort of ambushed and talked to you, You kind of make it clear you aren't interested in talking....
And don't ever think it's easy to ignore you, it was the hardest thing I've done.... keeping silent hoping maybe you'd at least say hey...... I also meant what I said when I said I missed talking, any and all stupid crap with you..... And I never change paths to avoid you..... I always turn left at whatever that building is to go to mine.... I only changed to be able to try to talk the first time I saw you..... And even though this is going to sound really fucking stalkerish....... but I always look for you in the mornings..... It's sad because I don't think you care to see me.... But always makes me happy to see you around.
None of this is meant to be an attack or angry rant.... I even tried to lighten it up..... But like you, I was just trying to be honest and say what and why I thought what I did. I don't think you know how hard it was to talk to you that once..... Or maybe you do as you didn't say anything the last time either...... As I said before , had I really thought about it, I probably would've lost my nerve.... and just stayed out of your way.
I'm sorry about writing so damn much..... I still have a hard time speaking, easily? I have to in depth explain everything.......
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I will say I don't talk much because what I do say is thrown back at me. Never taken at face value. I get tired of defending myself against it and it's not fair. I feel like you're just itching for conflict when you take something as simple as "I found it pleasant"-a positive thing- and bastardize what I said into "weren't upset about"- a not positive thing. Small change, but still insulting to me as it does change the whole meaning.
It pushes a button you damn well know not to.
Also you need to take timing into consideration.
Person A is approached by Person B. B talks to A. A responds and keeps things light. A and B part ways to go to work.
Person B complains about the whole thing on the Internet later.
Person A sees this.
Next time Person A sees Person B, they keep quiet.
Person B thinks they are owed a "hello" and asks "would it have been so hard to say something?"....
That's a little backwards, don't you think? And what you keep telling me, that you miss talking and yadda yadda... it is in direct conflict with what you write, and say you mean every bit of.
I think the best way to put it is this: You make it so trying to talk to you is work.
And I'm unwilling to do any work here. It shouldn't be work.
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