I know its typical blah blah. its always typicalwhy do you thing Im tired of those meaningful films

[manayatma]

ARG. I'm getting my GED cuz i'm a dummy dumb. Yeah. Anyway, I think I'm pretty much destroying Kyle's life, mostly because I'm selfish and spoiled but. I take up too much of his time, i like spending time with I guess my former friends but i like spending time with him more than anything, and I want to spend as much time with him as I can before

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[grapeapeoftokyo]

im just gonna say this online cause god knows my writing capabilities far exceed my speaking......it seems that we are trying to avoid you too together and only come around when we are apart because when we are together all we get is shit from everyone, shit about how we live, shit about how we love each other, and how we fight, i never saw anyone once get angry at lisa and dan for fighting while people were around, angel i never told you once anything about your girlfriends even if they were my friends as well. i think that since both of us were friends of everyone before, everyone thought it was okay for them to insert themselves into our relationship, i wouldnt mind so much if everything that was said wasnt so negative and downright mean sometimes, but the majority was. i asked you angel to move in with you cause i knew you could stand me moving in, i didnt know sarah was going to have to move in as well but it happened, right before we moved out was one of the worst parts of our relationships as friends, yes it is your house, but you welcomed me into it, and after that it seems like you just didnt care how you were towards us, and you brought others in on the bashing, i thank you very much for letting us live there, i dont think i could ever repay you, but it really saddens me to think of how you really thought of us.

lisa, its seems like we have a problem with you because there is, its easy to put aside sometimes but you overbearing negative feelings can seriously damper a mood, its easy for you to say that you want to hang out more cause dan is leaving but i remember when dan came back we didnt see you for weeks on end, i dont want this to turn in to some personal attack cause it isnt i just think everyones feelings are getting hurt and im tired of trying to be the person that trys to make everyone happy.

i really dont know what to tell either of you, im just tired, really tired and i dont think i would like to continue fighting about anything anymore.

[ihopeshedies]

dan and i did get shit for our fighting. so i don't know why you seem to think we didn't. another thing, i wasn't gone for weeks on end when dan came to town. i actually went to hang out at angels. i'm not trying to insert myself into your relationship but when it comes to sarah mentioning not caring about our friendships i think i should be able to say something about it and how it affects us. i'm just saying why i think it's hard to be friends.

yeah, of course i can hang out more now that dan is leaving. the reason i couldn't hang out with you guys as much when dan was here wasn't because i wanted to spend all the time in the world with him. it was because i had no other choice but have to stay home sometimes so he could get things done here. i wasn't just staying home to hang out with him. but now that he's gone i don't have to worry about being home so dan can sleep here and get a good rest for work in the morning. after he quit work though we often went to angels.

my overbearing negative feelings? i didn't know that you got those from me considering i actually try to still talk to you and sarah sometimes.
this isn't fighting by the way. there is more i could say but what is the point? of course you're only going to see what people do to you & sarah not what you two do to us and the same goes for us.

i guess all in all, i won't even try this anymore. take it easy.

i hate this...

[solarpowersoul]

kyle...
about my girlfriends...if you had ever come forward and said to me what i'm saying to you now, i would have seriously reconsidered what i had with them to save our friendship...but if you did indeed have a problem, then you should have spoken up, god knows i would've listened.
about you living with me, and our actions/attitudes towards each other. that was almost entirely about the intense disrespect i felt coming from you two. i guess everyone did take sides against you in a prank sort of sense...stemming from you guys making it seem like it was you against the world. but as a pair you have lost all sense of humour, and the ability to take a joke. you hurt for yourselves and each other, and make it seem loads worse than it is...and take turns perpetuating the evilness of an attempt to rouse your sleeping sense of humour. towards the end of your stay, i ended up just trying to stay as far away as i could. now i feel like i'm still stuck there.

i remember once you and i and maybe josh, talking about how we'd never fuck up our friendships over "a girl"...and although it isn't that simple it seems like its happening.

but really...this isn't about girlfriends/boyfriends/relationships/fighting. its about how you & her isolate yourselves and make people feel like they don't matter. i am more tired than you know of feeling like a third wheel. i've had enough rejection in my life..i don't think i can handle it coming from my friends anymore.