oh how i wish i was sleeping
for some reason, i didin't wake up when I wanted to today, and for some other reason, i am not able to put in all the crap i wanted to put in today, i was thinking about it on my way home from work this morning and thought. hmmmm. i really should update and put all of these thoughts on pseudo paper, but it'll have to wait. I am off to work where all the head honchos are running a shift, because the store got 3rd place out of 17 stores, in hospitality, so the head honchos are running a shift*. *shrug* . i wanted to get in early so i can laugh at them. However, this also means that my uniform has to be spotless, good looking, and even .. standard. which means a belt. I've decided that I still neeed a job that I am not wearing a BASEBALL CAP to. and I have also decided that there are a lot of things wrong with me. hopefully things that can be cured by Clorox 2 and some vitamins. I'm just going to put myself in a washer full of them and hope for the best. I don't know where to start with cleaning my bedroom. WHich is unfortunate because I am going to neeed to start veryu soon, rather than just look at all the crap piling up.
i also am doing christmas shopping for my family amongst all of this. I am hoping that I can get everything done. Finish my room, and then pack everythin. I mean wrap everything in here. Which means pack. wrap. ship. ... go. I have a lot to say later, but i'll have to keep it for later. I feel sick which probably means I need to eat something, which I don't want to do because I am a whopping 180 ish lbs, which makes me very sad, but don't tell anyone this, because they'll think that I'll be starving myself or that I'm talking about my weight because i think i'm ugly, which i don't. But i feel like someone set a ton of bricks on me lately. and I need to go out and run or something... soon. because i am definately not in my usual versions of good moods lately. I need to set up times during the week that I can go to the gym, so i can start my new years resolutions early early early. That way. I can. Stick to it, and do it all the time. MY next couple of weeks are giong to suck, but maybe I can talk about those later. I need to see if i can go to Red Robin TONIGHT. and do the paperwork then. if they'll still have me. *sighs* i don't even know if i want to be employed that far away or if i should just apply to a couple of other places and just.. wait for them. I don't know. It has to be a job after Christmas. and that is what worries me the most. Oh and the apartment whe Terri lived there. they wanted first months rent as a security deposit, and then... rent. so... that means.... like 900 dollars. ... ugh. fingers. crossed. and hopes locked.dddddddddddddddddddddddd
i also am doing christmas shopping for my family amongst all of this. I am hoping that I can get everything done. Finish my room, and then pack everythin. I mean wrap everything in here. Which means pack. wrap. ship. ... go. I have a lot to say later, but i'll have to keep it for later. I feel sick which probably means I need to eat something, which I don't want to do because I am a whopping 180 ish lbs, which makes me very sad, but don't tell anyone this, because they'll think that I'll be starving myself or that I'm talking about my weight because i think i'm ugly, which i don't. But i feel like someone set a ton of bricks on me lately. and I need to go out and run or something... soon. because i am definately not in my usual versions of good moods lately. I need to set up times during the week that I can go to the gym, so i can start my new years resolutions early early early. That way. I can. Stick to it, and do it all the time. MY next couple of weeks are giong to suck, but maybe I can talk about those later. I need to see if i can go to Red Robin TONIGHT. and do the paperwork then. if they'll still have me. *sighs* i don't even know if i want to be employed that far away or if i should just apply to a couple of other places and just.. wait for them. I don't know. It has to be a job after Christmas. and that is what worries me the most. Oh and the apartment whe Terri lived there. they wanted first months rent as a security deposit, and then... rent. so... that means.... like 900 dollars. ... ugh. fingers. crossed. and hopes locked.dddddddddddddddddddddddd