Changing who I am

[mana86panda]

I think about who I was 5 years ago and I cant remembe all I know now is who I am when I am with Steve. That person is not such a good one. I was not a good person at all over summer break I said things about people that I would have never said before. I am liking who I have become since I dont revlove my self around Steve. I no longer wait for his phone calls and I no longer give up on what I want to do or am doing just to talk to him. When he first went on the road I did not know what to do with my self. I felt lost but this time it is much easyer because I am finding out who I am with out him. I like the 'new' me and other people enjoy who I have become also. I realized that I dont need him to make me who I am. But rather add on to who I am. I dont depend on him as much, but rather realy on myself. It is good to know that I can still make it through life with out him by my side. Also I have been albe to go to Stitch show which I enjoy very much when he is not here. He never wanted to go because of the drive we would have to make or where it was. All he wanted to do was drink at the bar, drink at home or just lay in bed all night. I was depresed I need to go out sometimes I need my friends and my family. They will always be there and support me even if they think I am making a worng desion. It almost makes me cry to think that the person I love would want to smother who I really am.
Life is hard and trying to live is even harder.

Enough of the deep shit. I am happy and that is all that matters!