An offcial Military girlfriend... HELP!
I'm going to start using this again, too much is going on lately.
I'm going to be a military girlfriend it's looking like. Thomas sprung on me that he is joining the army. I am very proud of him and back him up 100% but it was so sudden and I'm feeling SO overwelmed. It was never something we ever really discussed.. At first when he told me on Wednesady we broke up. On good terms but very sad terms. We were both crying about it and It was just really hard. He thought it would be better for me that way, he said he didn't want to hold me back. He kept saying how he would never get to fall asleep next to me again and how he just didn't know how to go on with his day and function without me. I've never seen him cry and it was so horrible, he didn't want me to see a lot of time and would hug me and start sobbing into my shoulder. That night i was hysterical and went to stay at Mike's with Katie and Lydia. If i start thinking about that night again might make me cry so I'm not going to get into it too much, just know I was a mess. He was too, I guess. The next morning when I woke up I had a text that said "I still love you. I have made a horrible mistake. Will you still be the girl I come home to?" and obviously I said I would. I went and jumped on Mike and Lydia (it was like 8 AM...hahaha) and told them.
That day he came to pick me up and I've never been so like excited to see him. At work I guess a bunch of the guys were saying they didn't think I would stay faithful to him but he told them he knew me and that I was a good girl and he is trusting me and he needs me to be with him through this. I am going to be. It's going to be so hard. He went to the gym and I went out with his mom to the eye doctor. It was hard talking to her about this, usually I feel comfortable talking to her about anything but she doesn't seem worried or sad at all! It made me feel ridiculous for feeling so sad. I think she looks at it like i'm upset about him choosing the army but I'm not. I could not be more proud of him, he is going to be SUCH a good soldier but it's so sudden and he wants it so bad. For 5 years! He is going to be 26-ish by the time he comes back! and me, 24. Crazy. We don't know if I will be away from him all that time though, that would be hard. We were talking last night when we went to tops and he said how well we know eachother and how he would say for sure I am his lover and his best friend and we know each other better than anyone. I told him I would marry him for sure, I have no doubts but not under the circumstances. We're not going to get engaged just so I can follow him, although I would love more than anything to be there for him but it seems like such the wrong reason but than what other reason do I need? I'm kind of confused. We're going to talk about it after basic training for him.
The one upside this is when he leaves, he is giving me his car :)
I have to shower and get ready to spend the weekend there. I'm so happy to still have him. I'm hoping we have the summer still together. I know he isn't leaving till AT least after April because they are still all going on the cruise.
I'm glad I got all this out, I figure I will be using this Livejournal a lot more again.
:)
I'm going to be a military girlfriend it's looking like. Thomas sprung on me that he is joining the army. I am very proud of him and back him up 100% but it was so sudden and I'm feeling SO overwelmed. It was never something we ever really discussed.. At first when he told me on Wednesady we broke up. On good terms but very sad terms. We were both crying about it and It was just really hard. He thought it would be better for me that way, he said he didn't want to hold me back. He kept saying how he would never get to fall asleep next to me again and how he just didn't know how to go on with his day and function without me. I've never seen him cry and it was so horrible, he didn't want me to see a lot of time and would hug me and start sobbing into my shoulder. That night i was hysterical and went to stay at Mike's with Katie and Lydia. If i start thinking about that night again might make me cry so I'm not going to get into it too much, just know I was a mess. He was too, I guess. The next morning when I woke up I had a text that said "I still love you. I have made a horrible mistake. Will you still be the girl I come home to?" and obviously I said I would. I went and jumped on Mike and Lydia (it was like 8 AM...hahaha) and told them.
That day he came to pick me up and I've never been so like excited to see him. At work I guess a bunch of the guys were saying they didn't think I would stay faithful to him but he told them he knew me and that I was a good girl and he is trusting me and he needs me to be with him through this. I am going to be. It's going to be so hard. He went to the gym and I went out with his mom to the eye doctor. It was hard talking to her about this, usually I feel comfortable talking to her about anything but she doesn't seem worried or sad at all! It made me feel ridiculous for feeling so sad. I think she looks at it like i'm upset about him choosing the army but I'm not. I could not be more proud of him, he is going to be SUCH a good soldier but it's so sudden and he wants it so bad. For 5 years! He is going to be 26-ish by the time he comes back! and me, 24. Crazy. We don't know if I will be away from him all that time though, that would be hard. We were talking last night when we went to tops and he said how well we know eachother and how he would say for sure I am his lover and his best friend and we know each other better than anyone. I told him I would marry him for sure, I have no doubts but not under the circumstances. We're not going to get engaged just so I can follow him, although I would love more than anything to be there for him but it seems like such the wrong reason but than what other reason do I need? I'm kind of confused. We're going to talk about it after basic training for him.
The one upside this is when he leaves, he is giving me his car :)
I have to shower and get ready to spend the weekend there. I'm so happy to still have him. I'm hoping we have the summer still together. I know he isn't leaving till AT least after April because they are still all going on the cruise.
I'm glad I got all this out, I figure I will be using this Livejournal a lot more again.
:)