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this morning i looked down at my coffee and there was a heart in the foam...it made me smile.
i went to class early and he was there. only him. we struck up a conversation and of coutrse afterward i felt like a total idiot. whats new. one of the first things he asked me was if i hang out with the other american students. i said no, i hang out with my sister and daughter. daughter? you seem too young, not that there is an age or a problem with that.yadda yadda.
so i am a loser with no friends
i am going to have a nervous breakdown. i can feel it creeping. i am starting my episodes again. shit. i am going to have to go back to doctors.
i have a question for y'all about lj. when i go to modify my colors, how do i get the text color on my lj different from that on my friends page? does that make sense?
i am missing cecilia's first swimming class today. as we speak. that hurts. i hate missing her firsts. still no word from her father. looks like i might be able to move down here more permenantly...of course i have three years 'til that comes into picture
i have my presentation in class today. i am not nervous really. i feel this bitterness to the teacher so i feel more of this go in and do it and leave. she bothers me.
my grandmother is in the hospital again. heart problems. i wonder if she is beginning to let go.
i am still living in a fantasy world and have a VERY distorted concept of reality.
i went to class early and he was there. only him. we struck up a conversation and of coutrse afterward i felt like a total idiot. whats new. one of the first things he asked me was if i hang out with the other american students. i said no, i hang out with my sister and daughter. daughter? you seem too young, not that there is an age or a problem with that.yadda yadda.
so i am a loser with no friends
i am going to have a nervous breakdown. i can feel it creeping. i am starting my episodes again. shit. i am going to have to go back to doctors.
i have a question for y'all about lj. when i go to modify my colors, how do i get the text color on my lj different from that on my friends page? does that make sense?
i am missing cecilia's first swimming class today. as we speak. that hurts. i hate missing her firsts. still no word from her father. looks like i might be able to move down here more permenantly...of course i have three years 'til that comes into picture
i have my presentation in class today. i am not nervous really. i feel this bitterness to the teacher so i feel more of this go in and do it and leave. she bothers me.
my grandmother is in the hospital again. heart problems. i wonder if she is beginning to let go.
i am still living in a fantasy world and have a VERY distorted concept of reality.