Now I know
I finally had a date with a girl after many attempts on Craigs list. She was decently attractive, a little over weight but very nice, nice sized chest too. She was snugly and warm. We rented Rising Sun and watched that, and afterwards we had a groping session. She ended up riding me while we kept our clothes on, and she came doing that, and fast too. She was so quiet I had a hard time believing she actually had an orgasm but she sais she did, don't see why she'd lie. She even took off her shirt afterwards and I nuzzled and suckled her breasts, and all through this I never got aroused. It was nice, but it wasnot anythign special to me after all these years of waiting and wondering. So yeah, I've been with a girl enough to know my male side is just not dominant enough, and since I no longer have much interest in females after having experienced it, I see no reason to remain male in body. But, it's still driving me insane, even worse now because even though I know this i can do noting about it. I cant afford the female hormones to get me started nor remotely the cost of sex change. *sighs*