The Past Two Days....
Besides being a little irked about how it all happened, really I could care less about not being with Zach anymore. He never ended up calling later that evening, or the next day. But what would that accomplished? Nothing at all. It sucks, but easy come, easy go.
Later on Thursday though, I get a text from Ethan (lawyer boy) wanting me to come out with him and his friends, it was late and I didn’t really want to, so I declined. However previously that week we had made plans to do something for Friday night, but I wasn’t sure he would remember. Low and behold though he did. We made plans for the following night, although he wouldn’t let me know what they were at all.
So Friday came and I went to work, had an interview, good long day. In the evening I went to a friends party, which was fun, I do love those girls, but they are all married and all have children, and our other friend just got enganged, so all that could be talked about was wedding planning... clearly not something I have any knowledge of! I ended up leaving early to meet up with Ethan. We had a good time. He took me to a wine bar (I like wine, but am really not a wine bar type of girl), which was actually quite fun, more so the company that good, and the wine wasn’t half bad itself. After that we went to another bar, and I got this espresso stout, now that was good We really had a nice time, really not a moment went by that good conversation was not had; after the bar he suggested we go back to his place and watch a Hitchcock, damn how I cannot say no to those. We didn’t really watch any of the movie though. No we didn’t sleep together, but definitely made out for a few hours, he certainly wanted to sleep with me, and I him… but not on the first date. It was getting quite late, and I didn’t want to drive home… so yes I did spend the night, but all we did was sleep. Woke up the next morning, he walked me to my car, and said he would call…. We all know his track record of not calling…. I’m interested to see if he does.
Saturday was the wonderful day though. It was the day I had planned for Erics birthday. It had been months upon months since we had spent a significant amount of time together, we were both excited. He came over around 1, and we went to Multnomah Falls (he had mentioned a while ago he wanted to go, so I surprised him with the trip), and then took the pup to the dog park, got a couple of movies, and I made dinner (lasagna rolls, and facoccia bread), and then went out to play pool for a while. It really was like old times, like nothing had changed. There is not a single person I feel that comfortable or just good with. We didn’t really talk about anything of substance, but it wasn’t the type of day to do that. After pool we came home and had cake (his favourite lemon cake with lemon frosting and of course sprinkles), and put in another movie, but we both fell asleep to it. We woke up and headed to bed. It was a rather platonic sleeping arrangements though, he didn’t put his arm around me, we just slept. But it was nice to have him next to me again.
We woke up today and played around a bit (I am extremely tickleish and he knows that), then he had to go. I hate saying goodbye to him. It is the worst feeling…. And please don’t say don’t lose your heart to him again, because it’s already lost. I just can’t imagine really being with anyone else. I don’t want to be with anyone else. He says he needs time to fully adjust to everything; I just worry how much time he needs. Part of me wants to still go out and date, and see whats out there, (i.e Ethan), but there is another part of me that is alright with waiting for him for as long as he needs. I do just have my worries that it will be a long time…. But that is a chance I am going to have to accept and live with if I decide to wait for him. It’s Eric though, it’s always been him. No one else can even compare.
Oh! I took a picture of us too at the falls….. it was the perfect day sunny, and warmish….
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And now my Sunday has consisted of returning the shirt that I knew was too big but bought for Eric anyways, of course they don't have it, but I found something else that I think he would like just as well, plus a benie becuase his head always gets cold. Doing a section for school, slowly but surley I am getting this suff, there is just so much to remember! Applying for the one job that was listed, watching Rendition this morning (we didn't finish it last night), Little Women, and of course Catch and Release.... I have a ton of dishes from yesterday to clean, and I should fix the house before the week begins. I also have to run to target in an hour or so to pick up the above picture I had printed, and a heart cookie cutter, I'm thinking of making a variety of lemon things for Eric for Valentines day, so far I have lemon squares... any suggetions?
Hope everyone else is having a good Sunday! Mine would be so much better if Eric was here, though then I wouldn't be productive....