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While I'm sitting here upset & stressed, I'm going to write this entry (and then I'm sure tomorrow there will be a happy one)... but I feel like there is a lot of stress for me on my birthdays. Like today I've just wanted to scream all day. I hate making plans because I always try to please everyone.. and no matter what I'm going to feel bad or feel as if I'm forcing people to do what I want to do.. and yes, it's my birthday so I should be able to do what I want... BUT I want EVERYONE to have fun.. and I want my friends to WANT to come hang out.. not feel forced. UGH!
Why couldn't someone else just have planned my day? I want to see everyone (that wants to see me ha) and have fun. That's all.
I wish I could just turn my phone off. If you want to find me, you'll figure out a way. Haha. But then again, that's a shitty way to find out who doesn't actually care about you. Lol.
I'm sure everything will be fine. I just wanted to get that out. Thanks.
Happy 21st to me in 6 hours! :)
Why couldn't someone else just have planned my day? I want to see everyone (that wants to see me ha) and have fun. That's all.
I wish I could just turn my phone off. If you want to find me, you'll figure out a way. Haha. But then again, that's a shitty way to find out who doesn't actually care about you. Lol.
I'm sure everything will be fine. I just wanted to get that out. Thanks.
Happy 21st to me in 6 hours! :)