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I know, I know, this thing is filled with me angsting, but I've got to get it out somehow.
My head will NOT stop racing no matter what I do. I tried deep breathing, a kpin, some DDR, just hugging my mom for a bit and talking it out somewhat with a friend. Nothing seems to be working right now and it's freaking me out because along with the racing thoughts, I've got a massive headache, my stomach's just turning like crazy and my skins crawling and I want to hurt myself. I'm being good though. I haven't touched a lighter since they put me in the hospital and I don't plan to start burning myself again now. It's just.. GAH. I can't even explain it right. It's like this overwhelming urge where my skin crawls and I can't breathe and all my thoughts are doing are pointing out that it helps.
I see my therapist tomorrow and that's actually freaking me out more than it helps any since the last meeting with him wasn't exactly the greatest. And I know I just need to push through this stuff and feeling horrible more than 85% of the time to get to the DBT classes in June and use what they'll teach me to help. It's just the dealing with this stuff till then.
I don't even know what to do. I've exhausted my coping skills that I know work for me and I'm hoping venting like this helps somehow.
My head will NOT stop racing no matter what I do. I tried deep breathing, a kpin, some DDR, just hugging my mom for a bit and talking it out somewhat with a friend. Nothing seems to be working right now and it's freaking me out because along with the racing thoughts, I've got a massive headache, my stomach's just turning like crazy and my skins crawling and I want to hurt myself. I'm being good though. I haven't touched a lighter since they put me in the hospital and I don't plan to start burning myself again now. It's just.. GAH. I can't even explain it right. It's like this overwhelming urge where my skin crawls and I can't breathe and all my thoughts are doing are pointing out that it helps.
I see my therapist tomorrow and that's actually freaking me out more than it helps any since the last meeting with him wasn't exactly the greatest. And I know I just need to push through this stuff and feeling horrible more than 85% of the time to get to the DBT classes in June and use what they'll teach me to help. It's just the dealing with this stuff till then.
I don't even know what to do. I've exhausted my coping skills that I know work for me and I'm hoping venting like this helps somehow.