Something I should have done a long time ago
Well, I'm there and I'm not there. I still haven't worked it up to actually say a lot of things to the people they're actually supposed to go to. But there are things that I want to/have to say.
So here's the game. Go down your contacts list on your phone. Anybody that you used to, do, or will keep in relatively consistent contact with goes on the list. Write one thing that you wish you had said/did/etc to/with them. If you have no regrets (doubtful, think really hard) put something flattering about them you never told them. Family you can skip if you want. And only initials, so that internet creeps don't go stalkerish on people.
Maybe this is my form of reconciliation, of sorts.
AS: I wish I had respected you more earlier. You're a goofball, and you make dumb mistakes, but you can think pretty well at times.
AE: I regret that I never really got to know you that well. I wish that I had made a point to do that.
AK: I wish I'd had a chance to say goodbye. I'll miss your sense of humor and wit.
AS: I'm sorry that we weren't better friends. You're a good friend to have, and everyone who you call a friend should consider themselves lucky.
AC: I wish we hung out more simply because you've got a sharp tongue and a quick mind, and people like that are fun to be around.
AB: I wish we had been as good of friends as I wanted us to be. It's my fault; I never made the time, and I'm sorry.
BD: I wish that I'd actually kept in touch. I could've learned a lot more from you.
BS: I wish we hadn't drifted apart. We used to be so tight and, while we were still good friends, it just eventually wasn't the same.
BB: I wish that I could've taught you something. I learned a lot from you, but don't feel like I gave much yet. By the way, you're beautiful.
BP: I wish we spent more time together. You have so much love for life it seems, and some of the ideas that come out of your head are brilliant.
BC: I wish we'd lived closer together. We could've had a lot of fun (but now we have no excuse not to)
CA: I regret not knowing you better. You have God-given talent and that's something everyone should want to be around.
CF: I always wished that we'd become better friends. You're always so much fun to be around. Maybe there's still time.
DS: I feel like I missed out on something that you have with some of your other friends. I wish I'd made a point to hang out more.
DS: I wish I had worked harder for you. I had a lot of fun, but I wish I could've done something special. You earned it.
DL: You're crazy, but you're a lot of fun to be around. I wish I actually had been around.
EK: I made the wrong choice. I don't know why, I wasn't thinking straight. If I could go back in time I'd take it back and do things the right way.
EB: I counted you out too early as well. I'm glad we became friends, but I'm sorry it wasn't sooner.
EF: I'm sorry that we gave up on each other, but I'm so glad it worked out. I wouldn't give it up for a thing.
EA: We drifted apart as well. I don't know if it's better or worse that way. I wish that we had stayed tighter.
JS: (wow I must be missing people) When you moved, we lost touch. I hate that. I still think of you and wonder what you're up to sometimes.
JS: You're crazy, but in only the best way. I feel like I never gave myself a chance to know you.
JF: I didn't realize that last time I saw you was going to be the last time. It was 3 months ago. I wish I'd said goodbye.
JV: We should've hung out more. I should've taken you up on your offer, if you weren't joking. I think you're beautiful too.
JR: You always made me smile. I'm going to miss that. Don't get lost in Texas.
JR: I think that I thought we were tighter than we were. I wish things were the way I imagined, because you're always fun to be with.
KJ: I wish I'd done more to make amends. I feel we were never really good friends because of that.
KB: I wish things didn't have to end how they did. You deserved better, but it was the best I could do.
LS: Your close friends and you always seem to have a good time. It makes me jealous.
LS: You have the best smile. It's so genuine and luminous. I hope that one day I can be as happy as you are.
LP: I haven't known you for that long, but I wish I knew you better. I feel like there's more to you than the world knows.
MS: I just left one day, and I should have come back. I know I'll regret it later in life, but I had to do it then. I'm sorry.
MD: I wish I belonged to the exclusive club that you seem to belong to. It seems like you're always having fun, and I wish I had that.
MF: I wish that I had gotten to say goodbye. After all we shared it just isn't fair.
MW: I realized we could never be best friends, and we talked about a lot of stuff, but I still felt like I wasn't getting the full picture.
NF: We should've done something together musically. I wish we had collaborated on something because it could've been great.
NR: Even though I haven't always, I grew to respect you and like you as a friend.
NR: I could never keep up with your brain when it comes to rhetoric. Hanging out with you would've been awesome.
NA: Another one of the crew that I grew apart from. I don't know why. I wish I'd worked harder on that.
NB: Sometimes you totally creep me out, but sometimes you're brilliant. I wish I was there more for those brilliant moments.
NM: I wish that I could see your thoughtful side every now and then, instead of just your funny side, as fun as it is.
PC: I learned a lot from you too. I wish I could've been back for one more year, but it just wasn't in the cards.
PR: When you moved, I feel like you moved on. I wish we'd kept in touch.
QF: We had some great conversations. I wish you were going to CP so that our conversations would still be relevant to both of us.
RG: I wish I could come out and just say that I don't really like you like that, and I probably never will. Sorry.
RM: I wish I had made things work. Period.
RW: I wish that once the initial awkward phase was over that we'd become better friends. I feel like you have so much to give/share, and I'm missing it.
RF: You're so talented, and i wish we had hung out more. You just seem like someone who can go places, and I wanna be along for the ride.
SB: You're beautiful (I know, this is #3 but I'm not lying in any case) and you always seem to have a smile. I regret not knowing you that well.
SC: I owe you a Red Bull. I wish that I knew you better. We were friends that didn't really know each other, and I regret that.
TP: You broke her heart, but I don't think you're a bad person. Just jealous.
TC: I knew you were crazy, but not that crazy. I wish I knew what made you tick.
So there you have it. It's not hard to guess names, I know, and maybe one day when I'm not a coward I'll actually say words, instead of typing them.
So here's the game. Go down your contacts list on your phone. Anybody that you used to, do, or will keep in relatively consistent contact with goes on the list. Write one thing that you wish you had said/did/etc to/with them. If you have no regrets (doubtful, think really hard) put something flattering about them you never told them. Family you can skip if you want. And only initials, so that internet creeps don't go stalkerish on people.
Maybe this is my form of reconciliation, of sorts.
AS: I wish I had respected you more earlier. You're a goofball, and you make dumb mistakes, but you can think pretty well at times.
AE: I regret that I never really got to know you that well. I wish that I had made a point to do that.
AK: I wish I'd had a chance to say goodbye. I'll miss your sense of humor and wit.
AS: I'm sorry that we weren't better friends. You're a good friend to have, and everyone who you call a friend should consider themselves lucky.
AC: I wish we hung out more simply because you've got a sharp tongue and a quick mind, and people like that are fun to be around.
AB: I wish we had been as good of friends as I wanted us to be. It's my fault; I never made the time, and I'm sorry.
BD: I wish that I'd actually kept in touch. I could've learned a lot more from you.
BS: I wish we hadn't drifted apart. We used to be so tight and, while we were still good friends, it just eventually wasn't the same.
BB: I wish that I could've taught you something. I learned a lot from you, but don't feel like I gave much yet. By the way, you're beautiful.
BP: I wish we spent more time together. You have so much love for life it seems, and some of the ideas that come out of your head are brilliant.
BC: I wish we'd lived closer together. We could've had a lot of fun (but now we have no excuse not to)
CA: I regret not knowing you better. You have God-given talent and that's something everyone should want to be around.
CF: I always wished that we'd become better friends. You're always so much fun to be around. Maybe there's still time.
DS: I feel like I missed out on something that you have with some of your other friends. I wish I'd made a point to hang out more.
DS: I wish I had worked harder for you. I had a lot of fun, but I wish I could've done something special. You earned it.
DL: You're crazy, but you're a lot of fun to be around. I wish I actually had been around.
EK: I made the wrong choice. I don't know why, I wasn't thinking straight. If I could go back in time I'd take it back and do things the right way.
EB: I counted you out too early as well. I'm glad we became friends, but I'm sorry it wasn't sooner.
EF: I'm sorry that we gave up on each other, but I'm so glad it worked out. I wouldn't give it up for a thing.
EA: We drifted apart as well. I don't know if it's better or worse that way. I wish that we had stayed tighter.
JS: (wow I must be missing people) When you moved, we lost touch. I hate that. I still think of you and wonder what you're up to sometimes.
JS: You're crazy, but in only the best way. I feel like I never gave myself a chance to know you.
JF: I didn't realize that last time I saw you was going to be the last time. It was 3 months ago. I wish I'd said goodbye.
JV: We should've hung out more. I should've taken you up on your offer, if you weren't joking. I think you're beautiful too.
JR: You always made me smile. I'm going to miss that. Don't get lost in Texas.
JR: I think that I thought we were tighter than we were. I wish things were the way I imagined, because you're always fun to be with.
KJ: I wish I'd done more to make amends. I feel we were never really good friends because of that.
KB: I wish things didn't have to end how they did. You deserved better, but it was the best I could do.
LS: Your close friends and you always seem to have a good time. It makes me jealous.
LS: You have the best smile. It's so genuine and luminous. I hope that one day I can be as happy as you are.
LP: I haven't known you for that long, but I wish I knew you better. I feel like there's more to you than the world knows.
MS: I just left one day, and I should have come back. I know I'll regret it later in life, but I had to do it then. I'm sorry.
MD: I wish I belonged to the exclusive club that you seem to belong to. It seems like you're always having fun, and I wish I had that.
MF: I wish that I had gotten to say goodbye. After all we shared it just isn't fair.
MW: I realized we could never be best friends, and we talked about a lot of stuff, but I still felt like I wasn't getting the full picture.
NF: We should've done something together musically. I wish we had collaborated on something because it could've been great.
NR: Even though I haven't always, I grew to respect you and like you as a friend.
NR: I could never keep up with your brain when it comes to rhetoric. Hanging out with you would've been awesome.
NA: Another one of the crew that I grew apart from. I don't know why. I wish I'd worked harder on that.
NB: Sometimes you totally creep me out, but sometimes you're brilliant. I wish I was there more for those brilliant moments.
NM: I wish that I could see your thoughtful side every now and then, instead of just your funny side, as fun as it is.
PC: I learned a lot from you too. I wish I could've been back for one more year, but it just wasn't in the cards.
PR: When you moved, I feel like you moved on. I wish we'd kept in touch.
QF: We had some great conversations. I wish you were going to CP so that our conversations would still be relevant to both of us.
RG: I wish I could come out and just say that I don't really like you like that, and I probably never will. Sorry.
RM: I wish I had made things work. Period.
RW: I wish that once the initial awkward phase was over that we'd become better friends. I feel like you have so much to give/share, and I'm missing it.
RF: You're so talented, and i wish we had hung out more. You just seem like someone who can go places, and I wanna be along for the ride.
SB: You're beautiful (I know, this is #3 but I'm not lying in any case) and you always seem to have a smile. I regret not knowing you that well.
SC: I owe you a Red Bull. I wish that I knew you better. We were friends that didn't really know each other, and I regret that.
TP: You broke her heart, but I don't think you're a bad person. Just jealous.
TC: I knew you were crazy, but not that crazy. I wish I knew what made you tick.
So there you have it. It's not hard to guess names, I know, and maybe one day when I'm not a coward I'll actually say words, instead of typing them.