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Well its just after christmas. Still depressed. I miss having someone with me. I miss being able to talk to someone and I miss falling asleep with the person I loved. I hate being alone. I've been alone my entire life. I don't want to live this way.
I have so many bills and I owe me dad like 2000 or 1000. I dunno. For christmas my dad gave me a check because he knows how bad I have it and I can't afford anything and it hurts me that I can't pay him back right away. I'm giving him my entire tax return to pay him off.
Other than that my mom is destroying my life. I moved back in with her because she wanted me to and I couldn't afford to pay for stefs apt alone. She wants to rule the fucking world. I don't have anything at all in my fucking life except my cat. I have nobody. First she wants me to get rid of my 200 snake and just throw it out to die because she don't want it in my room.... she never fkn sees it ever!! Now she wants me to get rid of my cat. He doesn't do anything bad at all. Her last cat scratched the fuck out of the walls and she kept him. She whines and complains about cat shit in the litter box. Yes! Shit stinks!! Get over it!! It did with her last cat... I can't take it anymore. I can't afford to move and I'm not losing my cat. What the fuck can I do?!?! Kill myself and take away all the tourture and pain she's putting me thru treating me like shit telling me what I can and cannot do... I'm 26 years old!! She whines she has no money!! I moved in and give her 250 a month for rent and she complains still!! That's $250 more money in her pocket each month!!! Wtf!! Try living without me again. Then say you have no money..
I don't know what to do anymore... I hate my job. I have no home. No money. Nothing.
I have so many bills and I owe me dad like 2000 or 1000. I dunno. For christmas my dad gave me a check because he knows how bad I have it and I can't afford anything and it hurts me that I can't pay him back right away. I'm giving him my entire tax return to pay him off.
Other than that my mom is destroying my life. I moved back in with her because she wanted me to and I couldn't afford to pay for stefs apt alone. She wants to rule the fucking world. I don't have anything at all in my fucking life except my cat. I have nobody. First she wants me to get rid of my 200 snake and just throw it out to die because she don't want it in my room.... she never fkn sees it ever!! Now she wants me to get rid of my cat. He doesn't do anything bad at all. Her last cat scratched the fuck out of the walls and she kept him. She whines and complains about cat shit in the litter box. Yes! Shit stinks!! Get over it!! It did with her last cat... I can't take it anymore. I can't afford to move and I'm not losing my cat. What the fuck can I do?!?! Kill myself and take away all the tourture and pain she's putting me thru treating me like shit telling me what I can and cannot do... I'm 26 years old!! She whines she has no money!! I moved in and give her 250 a month for rent and she complains still!! That's $250 more money in her pocket each month!!! Wtf!! Try living without me again. Then say you have no money..
I don't know what to do anymore... I hate my job. I have no home. No money. Nothing.