me venting blah.
ok. seriousness here. i have a few things going on and i guess i just need to vent.
ok, i got a D on my report card. yeah, i know. bfd, right? WELL! not with my psycho dad. he beat the fuck outta me the last time i had a C. and um... well, now i have 4 of those!
also, i gave away yet another guy who i "loved" to an enemy of mine. lol but hey, if hes happy... wtg right? i should be rejoicing with him. why am i so unhappy? psh, who cares... ill get over it. just like the other million times.
second. im having girl cravings like CRAZY. lol i miss waking up and seeing my girlfriend sleeping next to me and then kissing her awake or running my hands through her hair. i miss falling asleep holding onto someone. unfortunately, i cant have that kind of closeness with any guys, ya know? i mean, the last time i spent the night at a guys house was at adams. and hes my best friend, so that does count. gawd, i <3 him so much. but yeah, idk why, but im just like ah! annnnnd, of course. all we have at my school are these preppy bitches going around giving their preppy ass friends kisses on the cheeks them claiming theyre bi just to get attention from guys. THEN, you go oout with him and u dont get past the hand-holding stage. *sigh*
anywho, next subject. lol... mum and dad are having some serious doubts about whether they want to be together or not. again. this makes the 5th time this year that they said they were getting a divorce. christ. its pissing me off. either get the fuck away from eachother and stop bitching or just shut the fuck up, right?!!?
ugh. then my bro called from texas. he was drunk off his ass and said he needed money for some coke. dad just didnt get it... he said, "well son... they sell em for 2 for 5 bucks dont they?" hes in denial that my brothers a fucking cokehead and alcoholic. he has 4 fucking children. wtf is wrong with him. i love him so much, but sometimes im ashamed to admit that im related to him. i know it sounds wrong, but... wtf. you dont down a 6 pack everynight with ur 6 year old son sitting right next to you.
i havent heard from my sisterin a long time. maybe she got fucking abducted by some fucking iraqis. who knows. this is bullshit. the U.S shouldnt even be in fucking iraq, wtf. we got innocent brothers, sisters, moms, dads, sons and daughters being killed for no fucking good reason. that pisses me off. and they dont even take care of their soldiers. we have to send her care packages every month with fucking soap and tampons for christs sake! fuck this.
god im so pissed. i just wanna rip off my arm and beat someone with it. maybe that annoying kid who lives down the street that always goes, "HUHUHUH!!!! PUNCHBUGGY GREEN!" and play punches my car when i drive by. the stupid fuck. one fucking dint. im waiting for the day.
ohhhhhh my gawd im fucking pissed. people just got on my LAST fucking nerve today. it was hot and sticky and just ahh already, then these stupid assholes in my class were holding out condoms and told me that they needed someone to practice with? wtf, how lame. then i almost got fucking raped today in the parking lot. wtfe.
so yeah, its friday night, and what am i doing? exactly, not a god damned thing. thats cuz im a loser and have no life. AHH.
ok... wow, i feel a lot better now. done.
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ok, i got a D on my report card. yeah, i know. bfd, right? WELL! not with my psycho dad. he beat the fuck outta me the last time i had a C. and um... well, now i have 4 of those!
also, i gave away yet another guy who i "loved" to an enemy of mine. lol but hey, if hes happy... wtg right? i should be rejoicing with him. why am i so unhappy? psh, who cares... ill get over it. just like the other million times.
second. im having girl cravings like CRAZY. lol i miss waking up and seeing my girlfriend sleeping next to me and then kissing her awake or running my hands through her hair. i miss falling asleep holding onto someone. unfortunately, i cant have that kind of closeness with any guys, ya know? i mean, the last time i spent the night at a guys house was at adams. and hes my best friend, so that does count. gawd, i <3 him so much. but yeah, idk why, but im just like ah! annnnnd, of course. all we have at my school are these preppy bitches going around giving their preppy ass friends kisses on the cheeks them claiming theyre bi just to get attention from guys. THEN, you go oout with him and u dont get past the hand-holding stage. *sigh*
anywho, next subject. lol... mum and dad are having some serious doubts about whether they want to be together or not. again. this makes the 5th time this year that they said they were getting a divorce. christ. its pissing me off. either get the fuck away from eachother and stop bitching or just shut the fuck up, right?!!?
ugh. then my bro called from texas. he was drunk off his ass and said he needed money for some coke. dad just didnt get it... he said, "well son... they sell em for 2 for 5 bucks dont they?" hes in denial that my brothers a fucking cokehead and alcoholic. he has 4 fucking children. wtf is wrong with him. i love him so much, but sometimes im ashamed to admit that im related to him. i know it sounds wrong, but... wtf. you dont down a 6 pack everynight with ur 6 year old son sitting right next to you.
i havent heard from my sisterin a long time. maybe she got fucking abducted by some fucking iraqis. who knows. this is bullshit. the U.S shouldnt even be in fucking iraq, wtf. we got innocent brothers, sisters, moms, dads, sons and daughters being killed for no fucking good reason. that pisses me off. and they dont even take care of their soldiers. we have to send her care packages every month with fucking soap and tampons for christs sake! fuck this.
god im so pissed. i just wanna rip off my arm and beat someone with it. maybe that annoying kid who lives down the street that always goes, "HUHUHUH!!!! PUNCHBUGGY GREEN!" and play punches my car when i drive by. the stupid fuck. one fucking dint. im waiting for the day.
ohhhhhh my gawd im fucking pissed. people just got on my LAST fucking nerve today. it was hot and sticky and just ahh already, then these stupid assholes in my class were holding out condoms and told me that they needed someone to practice with? wtf, how lame. then i almost got fucking raped today in the parking lot. wtfe.
so yeah, its friday night, and what am i doing? exactly, not a god damned thing. thats cuz im a loser and have no life. AHH.
ok... wow, i feel a lot better now. done.
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