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i had the most terrible night last night...when you get a text saying "i think we need to talk" it's NEVER good...the text i got after that was even worse. "ever since that night with beans i've had a sinking feeling....i feel like we changed and i miss who we were...idk it really hurts...idk what to do..." we talked for a while...in the end he told me not to worry, we'd work it out together because we love each other, and that's one thing that's for sure...either way it scared me. i honestly can;t imagine my life without him now. he IS my life. and he's the only person i'd wanna spend the rest of my life with...but i know he loves me more than anything, and vice versa...so everything will be okay.
today was my mom's birthday. we went to the beach. it was fun. then i came home and austin came over. things were completely normal. we were just as happy as ever. and he said he doesn't feel like he did last night, it's going away. i think it might be the fact that he's graduating soon, and college is creeping up. which means him going away. and god knows that scares both of us to all hell...but like i said before, hopefully we're strong enough to withstand it.
i go back to work tomorrow...sadly..i'm so out of habit. usually it wouldn't even phase me to go to work, just another day. but it's the first time in what feels like forever...so i'm alittle out there. and with the events from last night i'm not in much of a mood to deal with other people. but whether i like it or not, i'm going broke, and i need the money badly. god i fucking hate working...
today was my mom's birthday. we went to the beach. it was fun. then i came home and austin came over. things were completely normal. we were just as happy as ever. and he said he doesn't feel like he did last night, it's going away. i think it might be the fact that he's graduating soon, and college is creeping up. which means him going away. and god knows that scares both of us to all hell...but like i said before, hopefully we're strong enough to withstand it.
i go back to work tomorrow...sadly..i'm so out of habit. usually it wouldn't even phase me to go to work, just another day. but it's the first time in what feels like forever...so i'm alittle out there. and with the events from last night i'm not in much of a mood to deal with other people. but whether i like it or not, i'm going broke, and i need the money badly. god i fucking hate working...