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beans left yesterday, although, it honestly feels like she left a week ago. idk why, it just does. it's kind of nostalgic. but either way, it was, in fact, just yesterday morning. we had a lot of fun while she was here. went on numerous double dates with austin and justin. they hit it off i suppose. but the whole anti-attachment thing kept anything major from happening.
i got my belly button re-pierced while she was here also. hopfully, this time, it doesn't reject. i'd prefer to not have another scar there. i have an appointment on monday to get my most recent tattoo touched up. the red faded badly (which she said it would) and the shading is a little off now. but the good part is she's gonna do for free. so i'm not complaining.
i now officially have 150 to my name. which isn't terrible...but isn't anywhere near good yet. i have my phone bill to pay still. and my car insurance is coming up soon i'm sure. but i think i'll be alright.
valentine's day is coming up also. i have no idea what to get austin. what do guys even like for valentine's day? i haven't a clue. i've never ACTUALLY had a real valentine. this will be my first v-day in a relationship. weird huh?
i go back to work monday. feels like it's been forever...i have so much to do. so much to follow up on. so much i feel like i'm forgetting or going to forget. and still stressing to figure out what i'm going to say to ron when i tell him i want a raise to $10. cause i know he's going to verbally beat me down, and tell me everything i apparently do wrong. and i'll have to be strong enough not to cry and hold my point and tell him everything i do right and everything i've learned...oh boy...-_-
i've also been looking at schools. i don't know what i'm doing. i doubt i could get into a university. i haven't even taken my SAT's. not to mention it's more expensive. i wouldn't mind community college for 2 years. but i found out recently PBCC doesn't offer psychology. which isn't good =[
austin started submitting college applications. his main school he's trying to get into is FSU (florida state university). which, for the record, is a REALLY good school. if he does in fact get in, he will most likely go...to my dismay. FSU is nearly 7 hours north from here. but i try not to think about it..he hasn't even gotten in yet...i feel bad for wishing he wouldn't go. but in the same, i hope he gets in, because i know it's his top choice for college...doesn't stop me from hoping he won't go. i cried when we talked about it. and probably will everytime we do. but whatever happens happens. hopefully our relationship is strong enough to hold up through it all.
i got my belly button re-pierced while she was here also. hopfully, this time, it doesn't reject. i'd prefer to not have another scar there. i have an appointment on monday to get my most recent tattoo touched up. the red faded badly (which she said it would) and the shading is a little off now. but the good part is she's gonna do for free. so i'm not complaining.
i now officially have 150 to my name. which isn't terrible...but isn't anywhere near good yet. i have my phone bill to pay still. and my car insurance is coming up soon i'm sure. but i think i'll be alright.
valentine's day is coming up also. i have no idea what to get austin. what do guys even like for valentine's day? i haven't a clue. i've never ACTUALLY had a real valentine. this will be my first v-day in a relationship. weird huh?
i go back to work monday. feels like it's been forever...i have so much to do. so much to follow up on. so much i feel like i'm forgetting or going to forget. and still stressing to figure out what i'm going to say to ron when i tell him i want a raise to $10. cause i know he's going to verbally beat me down, and tell me everything i apparently do wrong. and i'll have to be strong enough not to cry and hold my point and tell him everything i do right and everything i've learned...oh boy...-_-
i've also been looking at schools. i don't know what i'm doing. i doubt i could get into a university. i haven't even taken my SAT's. not to mention it's more expensive. i wouldn't mind community college for 2 years. but i found out recently PBCC doesn't offer psychology. which isn't good =[
austin started submitting college applications. his main school he's trying to get into is FSU (florida state university). which, for the record, is a REALLY good school. if he does in fact get in, he will most likely go...to my dismay. FSU is nearly 7 hours north from here. but i try not to think about it..he hasn't even gotten in yet...i feel bad for wishing he wouldn't go. but in the same, i hope he gets in, because i know it's his top choice for college...doesn't stop me from hoping he won't go. i cried when we talked about it. and probably will everytime we do. but whatever happens happens. hopefully our relationship is strong enough to hold up through it all.