jamming to a paradox
Yesterday was a pretty long day, and an extremely productive one. Unfortunately, by the time 10pm rolled around I couldn't gain enough momentum to make it out for the Saul Williams show. I know. Just having to type that makes me feel like an old person. I'd be disappointed in myself if I hadn't gotten so much other stuff done yesterday. Or, at least that's what I keep telling myself. I'm actually kind of bummed about it.
This is my only real struggle these days, my unrealistic self expectations. The addition of certain self disciplines into my life over the last six months have helped with my feeling of balance in this area. It is noteworthy to mention that the addition of certain control elements in my life has been most important to me as a reminder of how much in life is highly variable. A number of Sufi stories discuss this kind of seeming paradox. I've been feeling a strong connection with that recently. A veil of mysticism lifted through the simplest repetitive acts. Empiricism is my best friend.
This is my only real struggle these days, my unrealistic self expectations. The addition of certain self disciplines into my life over the last six months have helped with my feeling of balance in this area. It is noteworthy to mention that the addition of certain control elements in my life has been most important to me as a reminder of how much in life is highly variable. A number of Sufi stories discuss this kind of seeming paradox. I've been feeling a strong connection with that recently. A veil of mysticism lifted through the simplest repetitive acts. Empiricism is my best friend.