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The days have all been the same lately; get up in a stuffy house, go for a hot sweaty walk not too long after 6 am, come back, breakfast, shower, and then hunker down inside with the a/c and ceiling fans to try to stay cool for the rest of the day. I do some work for my daughter (usually less than an hour) and then fill the time with reading, watching shows, and playing online games. A couple of days ago I started watching "This is Us", which I'd heard of but never seen before, and I'm really enjoying it. I only started watching because it popped up on Netflix, otherwise I probably would never have thought to look for it. I'm also watching "Young Sheldon" every so often.
I feel like I should be grieving more, but I guess everybody grieves differently. It feels like I can mainly only get in touch with my feelings of sadness when I watch a particularly moving scene in a show. Probably the reality will hit me when I go home and S isn't there, because right now I feel like she's still at home while I'm here.
Today is my birthday and also our wedding anniversary. My daughter asked me what I'd like to do to celebrate and I couldn't think of anything except staying cool, so she suggested she and I go for a swim together before she picks up the girls from camp so that's what we're going to do.
Yesterday daughter's minivan got a flat tyre. Nobody has been able to get the flat tyre off to put on the spare - not son in law, not the Triple A person - so now they're waiting for a tow truck to take the car to a tyre place where presumably they will have the right equipment to get the nuts undone. Luckily daughter is able to use my car to ferry the girls around, and son in law has the use of his mother's car because she gave up driving a couple of years ago.
I feel like I should be grieving more, but I guess everybody grieves differently. It feels like I can mainly only get in touch with my feelings of sadness when I watch a particularly moving scene in a show. Probably the reality will hit me when I go home and S isn't there, because right now I feel like she's still at home while I'm here.
Today is my birthday and also our wedding anniversary. My daughter asked me what I'd like to do to celebrate and I couldn't think of anything except staying cool, so she suggested she and I go for a swim together before she picks up the girls from camp so that's what we're going to do.
Yesterday daughter's minivan got a flat tyre. Nobody has been able to get the flat tyre off to put on the spare - not son in law, not the Triple A person - so now they're waiting for a tow truck to take the car to a tyre place where presumably they will have the right equipment to get the nuts undone. Luckily daughter is able to use my car to ferry the girls around, and son in law has the use of his mother's car because she gave up driving a couple of years ago.