Of princes and Toads; the palace life without a glow
So I have been thinking on the response I’ve been getting from people and what I may be doing to cause that response. It’s not that people are negative towards me, I have many friends I adore and such. It’s just that some people who I believed were my friends have stabbed me in the back before and with partners? Let’s not even get into my luck with them. I’m sick of instead of finding knights in shiny armor I find toads wrapped in aluminum foil pretending to be gallant. It’s just that even though I don’t exactly open up easily to people, I still hope that those who are around me have some sense of loyalty or care for me for what I am. I guess I’m wrong when I believe that those who claim love don’t always mean it. If I’m being fucking honest with you have the guts to be honest with me.
Ok so I have stated my problem, yet what will be my reaction? It’s not like I’m just going to sit down and watch as this happens around me. I have to get away from those people and improve myself so I don’t attract them. It’s my turn to be selfish and to decide who I want to be around or not instead of giving everyone a chance. Giving anyone who wants a chance just makes me have hope in them and then be crushed when they show to be nothing. It’s time for me to be firmer in my beliefs and even blunter than I was.
As to the partner section I’m just sick of all this shit. I’m not saying that I haven’t ever had a good, sweet partner, it’s just that it’s not what I’ve been looking for. I’ve given people a chance just to be proved that they don’t disserve it at the end, that their promises were false, and that they didn’t even really care. Why am I going to sacrifice -myself- just for some one to check if they will fit with me just to have them shoved it back at me afterwards or have me to explain that it just isn’t going to work out. If you want to be my knight in shiny armor then you better get off your ass and sweep me off my feet. I’m not going to date you unless that has happened. Feel free to try, but I’m not going to give you a chance unless you have been able to, because of trying or just your personality from the beginning, to swoon me. I’m sorry if I sound like an arrogant bitch but good god, it’s time to be some-what self absorbed and selfish.
Ok so I have stated my problem, yet what will be my reaction? It’s not like I’m just going to sit down and watch as this happens around me. I have to get away from those people and improve myself so I don’t attract them. It’s my turn to be selfish and to decide who I want to be around or not instead of giving everyone a chance. Giving anyone who wants a chance just makes me have hope in them and then be crushed when they show to be nothing. It’s time for me to be firmer in my beliefs and even blunter than I was.
As to the partner section I’m just sick of all this shit. I’m not saying that I haven’t ever had a good, sweet partner, it’s just that it’s not what I’ve been looking for. I’ve given people a chance just to be proved that they don’t disserve it at the end, that their promises were false, and that they didn’t even really care. Why am I going to sacrifice -myself- just for some one to check if they will fit with me just to have them shoved it back at me afterwards or have me to explain that it just isn’t going to work out. If you want to be my knight in shiny armor then you better get off your ass and sweep me off my feet. I’m not going to date you unless that has happened. Feel free to try, but I’m not going to give you a chance unless you have been able to, because of trying or just your personality from the beginning, to swoon me. I’m sorry if I sound like an arrogant bitch but good god, it’s time to be some-what self absorbed and selfish.