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078 - Flashback Theatre with Henry West

Mar 22, 2009 14:32

The first time I had to shoot a civilian-- hostile, actually. They lose civilian status the moment the Infection hits their system-- it was the first I'd actually been faced with the Infected. In my position, I only had to supervise. Direct. For the first days, I was perfectly isolated from what was really happening. But as our numbers ( Read more... )

regrets, my booooyz, emo!, i hate you too farrell, whiny bastard, i hate you jim

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thatlibbychick March 22 2009, 22:27:30 UTC

I'm sorry that you had to go through all of that. You were acting in a crisis, you did what you had to, and you were doing it for the safety of others. You can't be blamed for trying to survive a nightmare like that, and it doesn't have to define who you are, either. Not unless you let it. I refuse to believe that you're some sort of horrible person because of what happened.

It's not like I haven't said this before, but I'm always here if you need me.

He always conveniently leaves out the "SYSTEMIZED RAPE!" part... major_west March 22 2009, 22:39:23 UTC

I say that every day, but it's why I'm here. In my status here, I am defined by it.

thatlibbychick March 22 2009, 22:57:49 UTC

That's your status, but some of us know you can be a better person than that. I know you have what it takes to turn your life around.

...I'm sorry for using "life," by the way. I know what it's like to be dead. It's just the only word that fits.

major_west March 22 2009, 22:59:38 UTC

No, it's alright. I'm sorry, you must feel as trapped here as any of us Inmates.

SHE TELLS LIES to benefit him. She feels trapped all the time. xD thatlibbychick March 22 2009, 23:09:54 UTC

You can only feel trapped if you let yourself; I once heard someone say that lonely is a choice. Get out there and spend time with people. Remember ringing in the new year? Subtract the alcohol, and try to have that kind of fun more often.

They can lie together! major_west March 22 2009, 23:13:16 UTC

That was fun, yeah.

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But to be honest, I didn't-- A part of me didn't want to come back from that last Port. I did it because I wanted Billy to be himself again, but if I could have... I'd have just stayed there with him. I miss the freedom of a real, open world. Don't you?

Private thatlibbychick March 22 2009, 23:31:03 UTC

I miss a lot of things about the real world. I miss laying on the sand under the sun, I miss the ocean, I miss...other things. More than I can say. But running away to a world that isn't mine...it wouldn't be real, and I'd know it. It would be the easy way out, and even then, I could never get back the most important things I've lost. It's not a solution. It's just running away.

If you can work through everything, West, you'll be free of this place. Just remind yourself of that as often as it takes.

Private major_west March 22 2009, 23:38:03 UTC

I really enjoy running away when it's dressed up as something else. I suppose it isn't terribly... mature of me to see things that way.

Private thatlibbychick March 22 2009, 23:53:03 UTC

You've been through a lot. It's natural to want to escape. Maturity, or lack thereof, doesn't enter into it.

Trust me. Even running away to a new place, where nobody knows who you used to be...it doesn't last forever. Things will catch up to you just as soon as you think you've found peace.

Private major_west March 23 2009, 00:00:54 UTC

I assume you're speaking from experience.

Private thatlibbychick March 23 2009, 00:03:01 UTC

For you? I'll admit that I am.

Private major_west March 23 2009, 00:14:43 UTC

I see. Well, I hope it doesn't happen to you here. I know what it's like to have somebody from your past turn up here and try to destroy any progress--

Thank you for listening.

Private thatlibbychick March 23 2009, 00:57:59 UTC

Any time.

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