Who are you?
So an update and its going to be brief as possible. Veterans day I went by both the VFW and the American Legion. I had a round of drinks and toasts for all of our fallen friends and comrades all of those who serve no, those of us who are left and to the fallen of our former foes. I insist we honor all the dead from both sides for did they not die fighting for what they believed in just like us? We must have grace in victory and make our former enemies our new friends so wars will end.
Been slow around here just a few repairs and such but got lots of cleaning and such done.
Friday my godchild asked to be committed to the state mental care facility, she was hearing voices. I have a hope that at 14 if you know you need help and go get it, it will be better for you in the future. I cannot fix her I cannot solve her problem I would not even if I could for to do so would make her weak and dependent on others to save her in the future. So badly I wish to ride to the sounds of the guns to fly in destroy her demons and save the day but I cannot will not must not. This is something only she can do. I will be there to support her give her my shoulder to cry on a hand to hold. I will arm her with knowledge and wisdom and send her into the fray but that is all. Powerlessness.
I missed Deana’s I am sorry dear. I wanted to badly to dive into a bottle and not come up for a while but did not it would have solved anything. I tried hard not to think about the kiddo but she was never far from my mind.
Pet I feel the pain you are feeling now I have seen that elephant and have felt its terrible wrath. It will be better soon I know it is so tough for you now. Spider hold him and love him it is all he needs and all you can do.
Roger Daltry last night was great. I wanted so much to curl up in bed and wish away the world. I am happy I went I found that even though I have seen him and The Who before that in his first song he retouched a part of my soul that gave me some hope for the child and myself. I stayed sober through the whole show just enjoying the energy and the music that swirled through out my mind.
Now on to a better day and I will find some hope and some wisdom with a touch of luck.
Been slow around here just a few repairs and such but got lots of cleaning and such done.
Friday my godchild asked to be committed to the state mental care facility, she was hearing voices. I have a hope that at 14 if you know you need help and go get it, it will be better for you in the future. I cannot fix her I cannot solve her problem I would not even if I could for to do so would make her weak and dependent on others to save her in the future. So badly I wish to ride to the sounds of the guns to fly in destroy her demons and save the day but I cannot will not must not. This is something only she can do. I will be there to support her give her my shoulder to cry on a hand to hold. I will arm her with knowledge and wisdom and send her into the fray but that is all. Powerlessness.
I missed Deana’s I am sorry dear. I wanted to badly to dive into a bottle and not come up for a while but did not it would have solved anything. I tried hard not to think about the kiddo but she was never far from my mind.
Pet I feel the pain you are feeling now I have seen that elephant and have felt its terrible wrath. It will be better soon I know it is so tough for you now. Spider hold him and love him it is all he needs and all you can do.
Roger Daltry last night was great. I wanted so much to curl up in bed and wish away the world. I am happy I went I found that even though I have seen him and The Who before that in his first song he retouched a part of my soul that gave me some hope for the child and myself. I stayed sober through the whole show just enjoying the energy and the music that swirled through out my mind.
Now on to a better day and I will find some hope and some wisdom with a touch of luck.