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Well i stopped updating cuz of some drama, but thats the last time ill let that happen. I'm no longer changing anything about myself for someone else. Why is it that when some people get close to you, they wanna change stuff about you?!? Why do u get close in the first place if u dont like what u see? confusing...
well i got myself in some trouble but by september 19th it'll be all over. Long story but i deserved everything i got. Its common sense not to do what i did but when you get so used to doing it, and all ur friends do it, u seem to feel invincible like u wont get caught and well, i shouldnt have if i would have been normal...but got a lil carried away...what can u do, another learning experience and nobody got hurt..couldnt of asked for a better turn out for such a shitty thing..
School is doing ok. i just finished business writing, have no idea what i got in there cuz im a dumbass and didnt go cuz of game 1 of the finals..missed 2 tests and had to make them up...i frustrate myself sometimes. Oh well. I have to take calculus at OCC this summer. I Jumped ahead of myself and thought i could just take it at MCC so what i did was scheduled all my fall classes for classes that i need calc as a prerequisite for, and what i didnt do was check to see if mcc even offered it in the summer...*sigh* did i mention i frustrate myself sometimes? lol so needless to say its not being offered..so OCC it is in royal oak, can anybody say ghetto?!?
Girls...hahahhahahaha, its a joke right?!? I forget what this dudes name is but its someone from a movie...but anyway im that guy, the guy that ruins everything he touches...im jusr horrible with girls. I just have the worst perception of girls anymore and of course ive met some reallyyyy good girls in my life, most im just not interested in or they just couldnt keep my interest. A little pickiness isnt always bad tho....right?!? .. right?!? :-/ Well, unfortunately it doesnt matter what that answer is bcuz thats how i am, i cant change it...
So theres this one girl i've been hangin out with alot. I do some stupid stuff and i pretty much tried to ruin it unintentionally. I can be such an asshole sometimes and thats not who i used to be. People change apparently and honestly, for the most part and for most of the people that have changed in my lifetime, its a bad thing...Theres alot of good people that turn bad and i dont wanna be one of them. I wanna be that skinny lil scrawny nice shy kid that i used to be lol...I'm thin still but beer tends to have a drastic effect on that one...yes i frustrate myself sometimes lol...
but back to this girl...it started out as total friendship, i had no idea she would even want anything to do with me seeing that shes a lil older, not much but thats how some girls are...turns out there could be something there. Well i guess there is, or was for that matter...i do have this tendency to mess things up but i think that its just making the rest of my life more clear, painting a clearer picture and its pretty simple now..the girl that can put up with my bullshit and sticks with me is gonna be the one i marry...im beginning to become more and more aware of that. I'm sure thats hard to find..for anyone that reads this, especially girls who i've dated they know that i can be quite the handful sometimes. I mean in all honesty i DO mean well, i just have a hard time of being that sweetheart i used to be all the time.
I saved a bunch of convos i used to have a long time ago with angela (yes the same old angela thats ALWAYS mentioned on here lol) and i was reading them today..i deleted most of them cuz i was totally embarrassed..the things i would say to her, i guess they sounded so good back then but now i read them and i get embarrassed even when theres nobody reading them but me!!! i frustrate myself haha..but anyway, i read the first few when we first met and the conversations went so good..i have like the whole good/bad ones all sorted out and shit lol...yea that sounds so bad im sure, oh well...i used to read them for motivation, and its been a while so i was curious...but anyway, i can remember that feeling i had when i first met her..i was so damn excited...ive been the "wild one" since like 12th grade and i actually felt what it was like to be happy and excited to meet someone i could actually settle down with and be with...obviously for all u that know me, especially josh sandro and chris who seen the ending of that lmfao, u know that it iddnt happen...BUT...i miss that feeling...
ok im done for now...but im back to updating... for now :-)
well i got myself in some trouble but by september 19th it'll be all over. Long story but i deserved everything i got. Its common sense not to do what i did but when you get so used to doing it, and all ur friends do it, u seem to feel invincible like u wont get caught and well, i shouldnt have if i would have been normal...but got a lil carried away...what can u do, another learning experience and nobody got hurt..couldnt of asked for a better turn out for such a shitty thing..
School is doing ok. i just finished business writing, have no idea what i got in there cuz im a dumbass and didnt go cuz of game 1 of the finals..missed 2 tests and had to make them up...i frustrate myself sometimes. Oh well. I have to take calculus at OCC this summer. I Jumped ahead of myself and thought i could just take it at MCC so what i did was scheduled all my fall classes for classes that i need calc as a prerequisite for, and what i didnt do was check to see if mcc even offered it in the summer...*sigh* did i mention i frustrate myself sometimes? lol so needless to say its not being offered..so OCC it is in royal oak, can anybody say ghetto?!?
Girls...hahahhahahaha, its a joke right?!? I forget what this dudes name is but its someone from a movie...but anyway im that guy, the guy that ruins everything he touches...im jusr horrible with girls. I just have the worst perception of girls anymore and of course ive met some reallyyyy good girls in my life, most im just not interested in or they just couldnt keep my interest. A little pickiness isnt always bad tho....right?!? .. right?!? :-/ Well, unfortunately it doesnt matter what that answer is bcuz thats how i am, i cant change it...
So theres this one girl i've been hangin out with alot. I do some stupid stuff and i pretty much tried to ruin it unintentionally. I can be such an asshole sometimes and thats not who i used to be. People change apparently and honestly, for the most part and for most of the people that have changed in my lifetime, its a bad thing...Theres alot of good people that turn bad and i dont wanna be one of them. I wanna be that skinny lil scrawny nice shy kid that i used to be lol...I'm thin still but beer tends to have a drastic effect on that one...yes i frustrate myself sometimes lol...
but back to this girl...it started out as total friendship, i had no idea she would even want anything to do with me seeing that shes a lil older, not much but thats how some girls are...turns out there could be something there. Well i guess there is, or was for that matter...i do have this tendency to mess things up but i think that its just making the rest of my life more clear, painting a clearer picture and its pretty simple now..the girl that can put up with my bullshit and sticks with me is gonna be the one i marry...im beginning to become more and more aware of that. I'm sure thats hard to find..for anyone that reads this, especially girls who i've dated they know that i can be quite the handful sometimes. I mean in all honesty i DO mean well, i just have a hard time of being that sweetheart i used to be all the time.
I saved a bunch of convos i used to have a long time ago with angela (yes the same old angela thats ALWAYS mentioned on here lol) and i was reading them today..i deleted most of them cuz i was totally embarrassed..the things i would say to her, i guess they sounded so good back then but now i read them and i get embarrassed even when theres nobody reading them but me!!! i frustrate myself haha..but anyway, i read the first few when we first met and the conversations went so good..i have like the whole good/bad ones all sorted out and shit lol...yea that sounds so bad im sure, oh well...i used to read them for motivation, and its been a while so i was curious...but anyway, i can remember that feeling i had when i first met her..i was so damn excited...ive been the "wild one" since like 12th grade and i actually felt what it was like to be happy and excited to meet someone i could actually settle down with and be with...obviously for all u that know me, especially josh sandro and chris who seen the ending of that lmfao, u know that it iddnt happen...BUT...i miss that feeling...
ok im done for now...but im back to updating... for now :-)