well, I'm a little back in sorts.
So I have been leveled out a bit. but I am finding myself still a bit...odd.
have you ever gotten the feeling that your not lost, that everything is exactly as it should be, and that you're going to be all right? and yet, somewhere inside, your really scared that may actually be the case?
i mean, it's been three monthes since my breakup, and I have no pretense about wanting to be in a real relationship right now, but that's ok. I'm not afraid that I won't ever be in a good one again, but the process of meeting a girl seems like so much work that I just don't care enough right now. But I know that the right one's won't take any work, because they will want to be around me.
and I guess that is the kicker isn't it. wanting to be around people. no just relationships. I suppose we seek out those people we want to surround ourselves with, and the truly strong people only seek out those that they truly want to hang out with. not just those that will do. and then there is that misplaced sense of loyalty for those that depend on me. In satanism, they call them psychic vampires (the satanic bible is a very interesting, if not entirely unreliable piece of theology, or lack of theology).
anyways. on happier notes, I have the first day of belize on the Myspace blog, for the interested reader. the address is here.
have fun, and thanks for dealing with the rant.
have you ever gotten the feeling that your not lost, that everything is exactly as it should be, and that you're going to be all right? and yet, somewhere inside, your really scared that may actually be the case?
i mean, it's been three monthes since my breakup, and I have no pretense about wanting to be in a real relationship right now, but that's ok. I'm not afraid that I won't ever be in a good one again, but the process of meeting a girl seems like so much work that I just don't care enough right now. But I know that the right one's won't take any work, because they will want to be around me.
and I guess that is the kicker isn't it. wanting to be around people. no just relationships. I suppose we seek out those people we want to surround ourselves with, and the truly strong people only seek out those that they truly want to hang out with. not just those that will do. and then there is that misplaced sense of loyalty for those that depend on me. In satanism, they call them psychic vampires (the satanic bible is a very interesting, if not entirely unreliable piece of theology, or lack of theology).
anyways. on happier notes, I have the first day of belize on the Myspace blog, for the interested reader. the address is here.
have fun, and thanks for dealing with the rant.