end of the summer...oh wait, I live in Miami...
Under conventional college terms and conditions, it is the end of the summer. I am in Buffalo at the end of a great home visit and it is 55 degrees. Tomorrow when I land in Miami it will be 90. Eck.
In truth, despite emotional setbacks (namely, breaking up with my First Love, my first Serious Boyfriend - and also the death of my dog) it was a good summer. I got to perform with the Martha Graham Dance Company, live in great areas of NYC and study at Graham some more... I discovered the wonders of Yoga, spent time with friends, and most recently spent a great 2 weeks at home with my wonderful parents and my wonderful dog(s) sleeping and reading and playing.
Even if it is time to return to rigid up-at-six-don't-stop-dancing-til-eight schedules, I am still sitting here awake at 11:18 when I need to get up at 4:25 tomorrow. It's hard not to reflect, worry, think, etc. when such a big change is coming up so soon. This year will be INTENSE and I will also be working and without the support and relief of having a (loving??) boyfriend to ease my worries away. I am doing fine without Adam but fear a small relapse when I get to my apartment tomorrow and have to deal with all his stuff, various presents and items I've collected from him over the last year.
I don't want to get back to my apartment and start crying. I don't want to feel lonely. I've been in constant close proximity to great people all summer, and will have to re-accept being alone in Miami. I haven't been so alone there since the end of Sophomore year. NOTE: Must spend more time with friends.
Other things to do in the week before school: Clean and sage the apt, go through clothes, make a trip to goodwill, get an iron, oil change, learn Acts of Light, write my B.F.A. proposal, go to class, see friends, and START A COUNTDOWN TO MAY!!
In truth, despite emotional setbacks (namely, breaking up with my First Love, my first Serious Boyfriend - and also the death of my dog) it was a good summer. I got to perform with the Martha Graham Dance Company, live in great areas of NYC and study at Graham some more... I discovered the wonders of Yoga, spent time with friends, and most recently spent a great 2 weeks at home with my wonderful parents and my wonderful dog(s) sleeping and reading and playing.
Even if it is time to return to rigid up-at-six-don't-stop-dancing-til-eight schedules, I am still sitting here awake at 11:18 when I need to get up at 4:25 tomorrow. It's hard not to reflect, worry, think, etc. when such a big change is coming up so soon. This year will be INTENSE and I will also be working and without the support and relief of having a (loving??) boyfriend to ease my worries away. I am doing fine without Adam but fear a small relapse when I get to my apartment tomorrow and have to deal with all his stuff, various presents and items I've collected from him over the last year.
I don't want to get back to my apartment and start crying. I don't want to feel lonely. I've been in constant close proximity to great people all summer, and will have to re-accept being alone in Miami. I haven't been so alone there since the end of Sophomore year. NOTE: Must spend more time with friends.
Other things to do in the week before school: Clean and sage the apt, go through clothes, make a trip to goodwill, get an iron, oil change, learn Acts of Light, write my B.F.A. proposal, go to class, see friends, and START A COUNTDOWN TO MAY!!