Im So Fucked Up.

[maisnonellan]

i dont know if i can even begin to explain how im feeling right now..but i think i really just need to write about this one part of all this confusion before i go crazy. please leave advice...but dont lecture me. obviously hes an asshole, obviously i dont deserve it...but it doesnt change how i feel

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[elbamoonraven]

boys suck. for some reason women have such a god damn hard time getting away from abusive men...Jared came down on me REALLY hard after we dated a year and a half, and I spent a lot of time getting over that, but a year or so after the breakup we started talking again and he apologized and now we're really great friends. I'm not saying this will happen to you, but you have to realize that it takes people time to cool off from things, get away from each other and reflect. While I doubt the men do THAT much reflecting, I'm sure the time helps, anyway. Bucky has this philosophy that it takes about the amount of time of the relationship to get over the relationship after a breakup, I mean TRULY, as in forgiveness etc the whole 9 yards.

I'm not sure EXACTLY what transpired between you two at the end but I think for right now he's not worth your thoughts. I know it's not like turning off a lightswitch, we all wish it could be like that, but don't let yourself get bogged down in this shit when you're such an awesome person and can be out having fun. Don't mask your awesomeness in the shit someone else hurls at you. Sometimes just trying to feel better makes myself feel better. Life is way too short, right?

And about the virginity thing, pah, I know I was upset at the time because I was being all protective and shit, but you acted on your feelings and not by force, and you did what you thought was right with what you had at the time and there is absolutely no reason for you to feel BAD about that.

I'm unfortunately going to minnesota for 2 months or else I'd come hang with you too :(, maybe some of your other friends can hang out with you for me :). Hang in there, sisterfriend, I know you're strong.