Hrm...
I dunno what's up with me lately. I think things are finally heading in the right direction in some ways, in other ways falling even farther down the well.
Finally have a job I like (as much as one can like a job) that pays pretty well, I'm learning many things from said job. Think that influences from said job are giving me more ideas for what I'd like to do career-wise. May finally get back to school after moving (yes, again.... sigh. Yeah, trust me I'm tired of it, too).
Moving back to N.Ky in about 2 weeks. Need to pack more and more quickly. Also need boxes. Note to self
Trying to be able to spend more time with the kiddo, but feel so out of my element where I'm at. I can't really make it "homey" since it's not mine to make.
I think that may be a lot of my issue.
If I don't have personal space of mine that feels like mine and doesn't feel like I'm just wandering aimlessly, I think that might be why I feel so off.
In addition, I guess I'm starting to get attention I never expected from places I didn't expect or hoped for 5 years ago, leading me to not know what to think.
My head is still a mess from my most recent and latest heartache that I'm still trying to get over and don't know how long it will take me to do so.
On that note, I don't want to drag anyone into my personal/emotional mess under false pretenses and I don't want to lie to myself thinking said person of previously mentioned relationship (so to speak) won't affect me should I come across him while dating someone new.
Cause it hit me that hard and to be honest, even now or a year from now if he asked me to move to Zimbabwe and live off the land in the Black Jungle I'd do it in a heartbeat.
I'm sure this isn't making a lot of sense and I'm just rambling.
Then on top of this, we have VD (the day, not the biological infection) which I'm not sure how it makes me feel.
I guess I try not to let it make me feel anything but it still does.
This year was more of a "my body is showing what my heart feels" moment as I had food poisoning and became very intimate with the toilet most of the day yesterday.
Whoo.
So yeah, other than my personal life being in shambles (at least to me), my job is looking up, my new (an hopefully long-lived) apartment is looking up, I think my finances are starting to creep out of the shitter and I'm hoping to somehow retain a social-life somewhere in the middle of "My Life:The Epic Mess".
At any rate, off to clean and maybe level my Death Knight if I have time after finally doing my taxes.
Finally have a job I like (as much as one can like a job) that pays pretty well, I'm learning many things from said job. Think that influences from said job are giving me more ideas for what I'd like to do career-wise. May finally get back to school after moving (yes, again.... sigh. Yeah, trust me I'm tired of it, too).
Moving back to N.Ky in about 2 weeks. Need to pack more and more quickly. Also need boxes. Note to self
Trying to be able to spend more time with the kiddo, but feel so out of my element where I'm at. I can't really make it "homey" since it's not mine to make.
I think that may be a lot of my issue.
If I don't have personal space of mine that feels like mine and doesn't feel like I'm just wandering aimlessly, I think that might be why I feel so off.
In addition, I guess I'm starting to get attention I never expected from places I didn't expect or hoped for 5 years ago, leading me to not know what to think.
My head is still a mess from my most recent and latest heartache that I'm still trying to get over and don't know how long it will take me to do so.
On that note, I don't want to drag anyone into my personal/emotional mess under false pretenses and I don't want to lie to myself thinking said person of previously mentioned relationship (so to speak) won't affect me should I come across him while dating someone new.
Cause it hit me that hard and to be honest, even now or a year from now if he asked me to move to Zimbabwe and live off the land in the Black Jungle I'd do it in a heartbeat.
I'm sure this isn't making a lot of sense and I'm just rambling.
Then on top of this, we have VD (the day, not the biological infection) which I'm not sure how it makes me feel.
I guess I try not to let it make me feel anything but it still does.
This year was more of a "my body is showing what my heart feels" moment as I had food poisoning and became very intimate with the toilet most of the day yesterday.
Whoo.
So yeah, other than my personal life being in shambles (at least to me), my job is looking up, my new (an hopefully long-lived) apartment is looking up, I think my finances are starting to creep out of the shitter and I'm hoping to somehow retain a social-life somewhere in the middle of "My Life:The Epic Mess".
At any rate, off to clean and maybe level my Death Knight if I have time after finally doing my taxes.