Switch up the Focus
What Up LJ?!? It's been a while since I seriously updated, but you look so different (perhaps, it's just because I'm old and stuff now). I got the random idea to start writing in here like a journal type thing again. Let's knock the rust off.
My friend Kathleen recently shared an article with me, that basically took a different lens to the idea of a bucket list. Comparing achievements to the idea of just being in the moment and actually letting yourself free to enjoy life, instead of hunting and collecting different memories. This was interesting to me, as I've been working with my therapist to start slowing down and really being present in the moments, instead of looking for the next big thing to appreciate. So, in the spirit of that, I'm going to start writing more frequently, about my random happenings (I feel like I just said that). Anyways. *AHEM*
I made the mistake of not getting something to eat before therapy tonight, which was partially because I was silly, but also partially because I was trying to do some last minute help for a co-worker in my company's Singapore office. This caused me to have to stay later and run off to get myself on BART and be able to get there on time. No biggie. I jumped on the fancy new work area bus (shout out to the Presidigo). After therapy, I went to "Eureka!" and got down to that eating business!
I will say, it was kinda weird to go into a place where people obviously drink (I'm kinda off the sauce with great regularity) and listen to the happy hour spiel, just to interrupt her and assure her that i'd just be sticking to Sprite. After I ate, I watched the clock and saw that I had about 8 minutes to get to the BART. I paid for the food and ran out of the place. I got ALL THE WAY downstairs onto the platform of the station, with 2 minutes before the train came, before I realized that I'd left my backpack in the restaurant. I hung my head down and ran back upstairs, with the pain of knowing that the next train wasn't coming for another 22 minutes, looming over me. However, I got back up there, got my bag (lucky) and waited it out.
When I finally got to my stop, I awakened and stood up to get out of the seat. I looked down and spotted cash monies! It was just 5 bucks, but was still more than I'd entered the station with! Just a random reminder that being in the moment is totally fine. I could've been preoccupied with how much I wanted to get home and watch Big Brother, or just go to sleep, but I took it slow and just let things happen the way they were going to happen.
How's that for some payoff!?
The rest of the evening was mildly entertaining, but now I'm feenin' for my bed, so I think I'll get some quality time in with her.
Holla!